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Re: Carlton's Journey To Life

Postby Carlton » 24 Dec 2018, 21:30

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Day 787: Social Media (Perspective)

The medium between being here with me and out there with them, in a mind that allows you to travel without moving a physical muscle, but muscle around the brain power it takes to react to what you see, that’s scripted when you subscribe to a world full of thoughts gone wild and everybody wants to be a ready player one, in a world that’s not quite ready for one to stand up and take responsibility for the way the world is today, and today just might be the anomaly of change for that one to realize themselves when seeing the world in the way we church the internet.

All massing to one spot to feed our minds with fallacious accounts of connecting with one another in the passing of time away, away for a momentary possession encapsulated by characters we know best, begets the demand for human interaction, that takes a fraction of the time it takes to type in what you want to see/hear and/or read about, what someone else has done, in a space bar that records you every request, then wonder why what you’re thinking comes up on your feed, claiming, ‘How did they do that, I must be connected or have some kind of special power or something’, but NOT, it’s designed that way, to accumulate your thoughts the way you think them, and feed them back to you, that’s why it’s called a feed.

But please don’t partialize me, along with the bad comes the good, where because of social media/the internet, one can now leave one’s block/neighborhood/city and state, to see how the whole world is in the same place and space, searching for answers, that everything is not as bad as we were taught, but bad in the sense that it’s all our fault for how we all had a part in creating our own trap, that trapped us in the individual states of mind we’re in, from the rich and wealthy to the poor and unhealthy, addicted to many things, addicts to the belief that I had no part in what I now experience, I mean social media is like the sins of the fathers in real time, where I can anonymously spite you and fight you with words in a smear campaign, because I didn’t have the same chances you did growing up, but won’t look up to see that you now do and the world is your target audience.

Where whatever you’re selling someone will buy, that makes greed something extra really, because now my ideas can come into fruition, so why not stick to the basic of real capitalism and let’s all capitalize on Life, instead of compounding more lies to feed to one another while disregarding all Life in fact, I mean is it really that bad to make room for all human being and animals alike, to have their own piece of earth, to connect with the earth we all came from, that gives us things freely (mind you), and guess what, if social media wasn’t here you wouldn’t be reading this, which brings me to the next point.

Fear of loss, losing friends in an unbefriending world that’s not friendly, unless I know you. The comfortability of being addicted to a click button in a stone age mind, is the realization of ‘where have I been my whole life, and why do I feel like I’ve done this before’, because we’ve become so comfortable with it, where if you take it away from me, my life would end in a shamble (and that’s where I just lost a few people, lol), I mean we know people from around the world more than we know our neighbors, in more cases than none, but then again our neighbors do the same as we do, that’s why neighborhood street are baron, where kid don’t play anymore, because we feed there minds with electronic, that snatches the expression right out of them, turning them into mind craft zombie, weak and petite (small and dainty) with no knack for life but their own, and others we feed too much, because they’ve learned how to push your buttons through social media, so we make sure they don’t, by giving them what ever they want, and when they grow up, they’ll hate you for that, and you’ll end up losing them anyway, fear of loss.

But it’s a good look, when using social media to share yourself with the world, your realization and insights without spite, because it’s all about me and this is what I’m doing that has nothing to do with anyone else. A friend shared how they find it cool to be able to see how other parts of the world is, where on one side it’s sunny and tropical and the other it’s snowing, fresh powder, for skiers and snowboarder, so if you got it like that and you’re bored with doing one thing, in one place, you can pick up and go to the next, no problem, but a problem because all can not do that, that’s why ‘at least’ a Basic Income Guaranteed for every human being is need, to facilitate what’s best for all, and what better way to get the word out there, than Social Media.

Before we completely virtualize the world, in search of other dimensions, how about we clean up this one first, before things get worst, until worst case scenarios don’t exist any longer, and there is a way to do this, that you can fine right Here on Social Media.

By seeing the best and the worst of us on social media, should give us indication as to where we stand as a society, where the worst can be corrected and the best can be expounded upon, without pointing the finger at any one, because as it was said, positive thinkers/doers create the negative and negative thinking/doers also create the negative, (that all of us), therefore all that’s left is to look inward toward self – to correct ourselves internally with what comes up and what we let ourselves react to, that we create our outside world with, then the outer reality will be a place where all life would thrive, and we can meet socially ‘in the physical’ with respect towards one another. Investigate Desteni.org

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Re: Carlton's Journey To Life

Postby Carlton » 30 Dec 2018, 20:55

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Day 788: Turn the other Cheek (Another Perspective)

Interesting how this statement fits in so many aspects of our lives, where most have defined in a hitting abusive way and one is supposed to walk away from conflict, fights, to be the better person/man, but then when one gets hit on the other side of the cheek, everything goes right out the window, lol, I mean I have defined it as such when first hearing this growing up, and didn’t understand it, thinking this is a cowardly act, to walk away after being hit, and so question the statement as improper, but improper it was for me to define this statement as such, impromptu believing things without investigating the true meaning behind them for myself.

Now, you can’t read another person’s mind but you can somewhat direct an action being perpetuated towards you, where in some cases a ‘re ‘action is in order to prevent further actions from being done unto you, without reacting to it, but simply looking out for the well-being of self, you, you and me, me, in which case we are turning the other cheek on the acceptance of abuse being done unto us, and so in our world in the long run, by not allowing it to happen anymore in any form towards life, I mean I can’t go for that, and I’m sure you won’t either.

But a calculated, premeditated response to a response that haven’t been perpetuated towards one, the mind takes and manifest a situation for us to see the nature of our thoughts, meaning we at times sit around and think, ‘what if this, that or the other happens’ and when it do, we then say to ourselves or others “See, I knew this would happen, just like I thought it would”, and in this case, turning the other cheek is on the abdicating responsibility for the thoughts we think and so manifest consequence for us to walk through.

Next you have things that comes up, in relations to seeing something gruesome, or horrid, then say ‘I don’t want to see that, because it’s too gruesome’ and turn the other cheek away from how we are allowing horrific things to take place in our world and reality and on this planet, while sadly thinking those people are crazy, but we are the craze one behind it all, for lazily turning the channel to something more positive, thinking that if I just stay in my little bubble I’m fine, then find crime in your own neighborhood and wonder why.

It’s obvious that turning the other cheek can refer to many things, but what I’ve seen within myself is interesting, where when doing things throughout my day random thoughts come up that I do see but don’t follow, that then turn into reactive ones, meaning being filtered through the deep dark secrets of my mind and presented back to me, like “Look at Here”, that I quickly, literally turn the other cheek and lower my head with a frowned up face in disgust at what I just seen, to not see what had just taken place in the picture room in my mind, and say NO, Stop, that only makes it worst, because I’ve then just given more attention to it, now being aware of the pre automation that goes on within and as me, I react to it, instead of immediately correcting it, that has become a pattern I’ve coined within myself, therefore correction is needed, so.


I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to have defined the phrase turning the other cheek, in the sense of being the better man and walking away from conflict, abuse, that I obviously had part in creating for myself and the other to experience, then would veil my participation within it, by walking away and leaving the situation open ended, and whenever it escalated I would feel vindicated for responding with aggression, because I walked away first, and people saw it, which was obviously an antagonizing, manipulative act, towards the other person, that held consequences for the both of us to walk through, even if I didn’t initiate it, but perpetuated the prolonging of it, we’re still at fault which is the part we most overlook thinking our action/reactions are validated, but not, we’ve just turned the other cheek on accepting our own point of blame in the matter, that gifts to us a moment of correction, thing is will we take it.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not realize how I have turned the other cheek on many of responsibilities in my life, thinking things would pan out in the long run, such as and most importantly, the random thoughts that comes up in my mind, that I don’t initially follow and leave them to be filtered through the deepest dark secret parts of my mind, to be presented back to me, like “Look at here”, then literally turn the other cheek and lower my head with a frown on my face, to not see what came up in the picture room of my mind, but just said NO, Stop to it, that would only make it worse, because I’ve then just given more attention to it, instead of immediately correcting it in the moment of occurrence.

I forgive myself that I haven’t accepted and allowed myself to see/realize how I have disregarded moments of opportunities of correction to look at/face and correct all parts of me, that I thought to be too gruesome for me to look at, and/or not able to correct, and by turning the other cheek towards it, I would create consequences for myself to walk through.

And so, when and as I see myself having something to come up within and as me, and that something being something I need to look at and face in the moment, because it’s bringing out a reaction in me, I stop and breathe. I see/realize/understand that my reactions are acts of validating how I need to correct things in my life, that turning the other cheek would only perpetuate and suppress it even more inside me, causing pain and other un-natural physical occurrences whatever they may be, from loss of energy/depression/stress and anger, to mention a few, therefore; I commit myself to no longer accepting and allowing myself to keep turning the other cheek on prominent things in my mind that needs my immediate direction through introspection, but instead to ‘horse with reins” myself to face it head on/ look at it and correct it, in the moment of occurrence, that way I don’t create any more unwarranted consequences for myself, adding onto what I’m already facing, and within that, I commit myself to turn the other cheek from being complacent and staying within any problem that I face, to moving towards correcting the face front I presented to others and myself as me.

Thanks for reading, and this can be applied in your own life as need, as I am applying it in mine, on the journey to unlocking the potential I know exist within and as me, to be brought out and expressed as an expression of me, that all starts with self-correction.



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Re: Carlton's Journey To Life

Postby Carlton » 06 Jan 2019, 21:09

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Day 789: What’s a Point

Once a point in time was once a point in my mind and once a point in mind it’s hard for me to see straight, a magnificent design embedded throughout time, that’s a fine line between existing and living. The gift of giving is worth expressing and living, especially when the gift is directed toward self, and all that’s left is to see a point as a gift and gift yourself the self-help.

If it’s all about me let me tell it myself, I think we can pick and choose who we want to be vulnerable with, and if spite is at table it’s hard for me to sit, because I can fill it as a veil that covers up the real shit, so please don’t anoint me with your words of praise, because these same words of praise are the same words that fades, when secretly envying what you didn’t say first or face on face first bases that could be worse, in which case the light should be shined on the points you face, without using what I’ve done as an example for your own saving grace.

But what’s a point? Outside of pointing fingers the reaction to the finger being given to you, gestures that quester out the anger in us, and feel good about being the last one to speak, with all this energy accumulating to consequence, we rarely ever notice our fault in the matter, and after taking matters into our own hand, stand in the background with no responsibility taken, until we’re awaken with back pains and a stiff neck, then beg the doctor for a prescription of Percocet’s, or any other medication as a quick fix cure, that lures us in to suppressing the point, and at times this medication can be smoking a joint, I mean I know because I’ve been there plenty times before, but didn’t use it for what it was really created for, that is to see how I exist within my level of programming, then deconstruct the programming to rebuild a new me, and rebuild this new me into the best I can be, so that all may see that I can be trusted with life.

It may sound foreign but we do this every day, when waking up emotional to start our day, that in turn destroy our day from carrying this baggage around, that’s usually an idea of saying; “What Now” when getting out of bed and someone has pissed us off, and if you live by yourself, you done pissed yourself off, from thinking about all the stuff that has pissed you off, then become overwhelmed with being pissed off, and lord help those under you, if you’re in an authority position, and missing the point, that I make critical decision on other people lives that’s alive like you, that ends up making it bad for guys like me, but it’s guys like me who’ve let it happen to self, because of missing the point of standing up for self, while standing next to you as the self I am, that we will inevitably handle the point.

What’s the point when making it a point to argue with someone, that gets you nowhere, but drained by the point, and drained by the fact that we had nothing to say, but said something anyway that complicated things, that complicated the real point that we’re obviously missing, if an argument is imminent then it needs immediate attention, to stand up within without moving a muscle, and hustle towards correction that’s a blessing for the both, that I know the real point is obviously me, so here I do a correction on what I see.


I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to excuse the point of explaining myself, by explaining how deep I was still connected to the point, in so many words that took my breath away, and created thin air in the relationships I’ve had. I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to afterwards feel sad for the exposure that posed a threat to me, because of wanting to express my own vulnerability with whom I pick and choose, as a chosen way to handle it all, then fall trying to handle it my own way. I forgive myself that I haven’t accepted and allowed myself to see the fallacy in the point of a fall, that is to relive the standing up from within it again, as many times as it takes for us to get it again, and get it to the point of seeing it coming and doing something about it the next time around, and ground ourselves within the point of correction, and that’s a point.

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Re: Carlton's Journey To Life

Postby Carlton » 09 Jan 2019, 23:04

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Day 790: Shaking things Up

Interesting THIS interview speaking on which we think, but do nothing about, wanting things to stay the same out of fear things would change, while secretly wanting change, but do nothing about what we’re thinking, which opens up the point (for me) of ‘Shaking things Up’. Enjoy.

They say kids say the darndest things, while adults think the damnedest things that’s handpicked from a selection of secret thoughts in our minds, that we reflect on and do nothing about. The what if’s, to if I were to change my way of thinking, what’s in stored for me on the other side, that keeps us trapped in a perpetual state of just laying back and enjoying a cup of coffee, reflecting on a life that’s past, then amass to a moment of taking responsibility and walk right passed if gracefully, but a bit weary on the attempt to shake things up, and give up before the process even starts.

Even if you had a Dinosaur heart would you have a bigger chance at a life without strife, or siphoning off the energy of others, so why heart the fact that people like us are starving in this life on our watch, where we just sit back and watch, with our heart going out to them, because we fail to shake things up in our own worlds, that would shake things up in the world around us, and around the world people are shaking things up and standing up for life that we forgot about.

Outside of earthquakes that shakes the earth, with manmade machines that breaks the earth, the earth stills allows us to inhabit its bosom, until we no longer accept and allow the destruction of earth and heart in absolute that the earth is our heart, and place back together the things falling apart, that starts with the shaking up of you and me, to live with all life in Oneness and Equality, and one day we’ll see that life was worth attaining to, and that the experience of me and you was well worth walking.

But until that time Ima keep on talking and writing out the corrections that needs to be taken, for myself to awaken from the slumbering eyes and correct all the lies that I have been fed. Therefore;


I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to think ahead in my head with thoughts and memories from my past, projecting them into my future, to live presently, without acting on the correction in proper placement of them within myself, my world and reality, but instead would worry about these things that I think would change my point of comfortability and contentedness, without doing a damned thing about them.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to be content with the way thoughts come up in my mind and walk through them into internal reaction, allowing all these emotions and feeling to come up within and as me, that I accept as a superficial shaking up of myself.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to shake myself apart, spreading me out and thin, instead of shaking myself up to stand up from within, and act on that in which I think about, in the correcting of me to change these moments I accept as my pass time.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to spend my pass time thinking and contemplating on things in my life that needs correcting but do nothing about.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to do nothing about the things that I think about that needs to be corrected in my life.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to put too much emphasis on hope and wonderment in the fashion of what if, when having a moment sitting with a cup of coffee, thinking about my family and/or partners in my life – that I hope things would just sort themselves out (as a collective), I wonder how did I let my life go this way, instead of embracing the “My life now” factor, in expounding on and correcting the realizations I see that is me now.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not realize how this shaking things up is helpful to me to fulfill myself, through reaching my utmost potential, starting with doing the opposite of what I resist doing and acting on what I think about, but leave lingering, to be sorted out later, that would definitely change how I experience myself in my life in this life as a whole, that’s best for me and so would be for all.

I commit myself to shaking things up in my life on the regular, whenever I feel complacency arising up from within me.


And within that the shaking up begins, as I have experienced, but still walking myself through the ‘shaking earth of me” digging up old roots as thought patterns and planting new seed to bare roots of change, and that is but one perspective on shaking things up, in my life and that of all life for sure.

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Re: Carlton's Journey To Life

Postby Carlton » 14 Jan 2019, 21:22

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Day 791: Anger (The Good/Bad/Ugly)

A cancer-causing expression that’s expressed when you can’t see ‘in direction’ a way out of a situation you’re in, and then suppress it, except when you express anger when in danger of having to change your expression to suit someone else’s lesson about an Ego.

Then it’s that Damn-Anger that equalize the situation for the stranger to see straight and erase the façade they’re hiding behind, and it’s fine because I’ve been there before, but now remind myself of a time in my life when things didn’t go right, like now, lol, but hell we love to rebel against ourselves, some would call our intuition, with a mission to royally fuck things up, and it sucks after being screamed at, that was needed to shake up our beingness to the core, then wipe my eyes and realize I’ve been asleep on the floor this whole time, in a mind that ignores you when you ask, what am I doing here.

But don’t hear what you’re asking ‘Here’ that pierces the reality of always being Nowhere with a faint glare of wanting to be figured out. As the frustration ensues that oozes through your pore, with a restricted chest we start to shake profusely, that ignites the fuse to a verbal time bomb into using our lips ever so loosely, it’s amusing to see how we abuse the opportunity to communicate ever so effectively, then run out of breath with no energy left and want to sleep the rest of the day away.

You couldn’t pay for a better moment to own it and take responsibility for the anger within, and if in sin we were born and raised in iniquity, I quit the point of being mad to preserve my sanity. Being Mad is like Making an Arrangement with the Devil inside, and it’s the Devil inside we’ve connected to our mind, and it’s out minds we hide behind and let destroy our lives, and it’s out lives that we push aside in a moment of rage, and it’s the rage we let playout in a moment of dismay, and it’s the dismay that’s an array of emotions and feeling, but if we erase the array, then we can start living, that’s hard to explain when we don’t like listening, and listening is the key to making informed decisions that’s missing when we decide to perpetuate anger, and anger is a premeditated act upon a stranger, or a family member, a partner a friend or a foe, and most times the friend or foe is someone you hold close, and near to you that’s in no way afraid of you, so we perpetuate anger because we’re afraid of them, afraid of what they may say in the wrong setting, around other people that don’t know me like that, and that’s when we really start to get mad, claiming that you hurt my feeling.

There’s a million ways to get angry, but only one way to stop, cold turkey that’s a perky idea of withdraw, for those of us addicted to the shock and awe of energy, that’s mentally and physically draining to say the least, where our lease of a life will soon expire if we keep, on playing with the fire of desire that would lead to putting our hand on someone, which in fact is a slapping your own self in the face, and fall from the grace that life has given, and live in fear for the rest of your life.

You might experience anger when things don’t go right and that’s where the blame factor comes in cocktailed with spite, that is until we realize and become aware of our faults in life, do we erase the blame and wanting to fight, but interesting how we then turn the anger towards self, stating, f*** man I really just did this to myself, that’s a cocktail of disaster when we react to it, especially because we know better then to react to it, but still do that creates more consequences for self, I mean anger is one of the deadliest weapons when perpetuated towards self, and it can kill me we exacerbate the use there of, and love when someone else reacts to our anger, as a point of them feeling the same mental pain, which is on a default setting that’s connected to your brain, and everytime it goes off we begin to be lame in the attempt to get our point across.

Nobody likes the ‘nice guy’ character, an ‘uncle tom’ or even a ‘yes man’, but yes man they experience anger too, especially when they’ve suppressed it for so long, and when it comes out everything goes wrong, because it’s used as a justification for being so positive, then hate everybody for being so negative, and hate the world for being the way it is, and this is how we’ve created a world like this, full of hate and a lot of anger, that makes human-being a danger to our own kind.

To be continued…



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Re: Carlton's Journey To Life

Postby Carlton » 16 Jan 2019, 20:38

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Day792: Anger (The Good/Bad/Ugly) Pt. 2

They say turn that frown upside down, as an acceptable way to look in a social setting, that may not be accepting, except when all is good in one’s life, I mean I’m angry and I might just hurt somebody in my mind, because in reality I wouldn’t hurt a fly and cry when I’m alone, until I realize I’ve allowed myself to react for nothing, but felt something, while No-thing was physically wrong with me.

You see anger also comes in when your attention has been side swiped from what you’re doing to the hype of having a good time, that might just divide you into two, from what I want to do, to doing what I’m told to do, but when realizing the Told was To-Leading, I fight myself for giving up on what I was doing and wanted to do in the first place, to grace the idea of another’s satisfaction that caused a reaction in me and now I see how I created this angry self.

To pick and choose who, what, when, where and why we get angry, is societies version of Anger Management, stating it’s ok to be grouchy, if you don’t get your way, that has nothing to do with being in defense of life, but in spite of life at the expense of life. We get angry when destroying life for money, with no real purpose, but to buy expensive purses in Birkin bags and Chinchilla coat, that shows how rude we are to animals and rodent alike, and hate the sight of a rat in fact, in fact may despise anything black, but that’s another story with the lack of understanding we’re all ‘cut from the same potato’, and do nothing about it.

Ask yourself how can you possibly be angry at the way the world is, like growing another conscious that you already had, better yet not even knowing that consciousness was bad, in the sense of allowing it to take over our existence, or maybe even that word is to big to listen to, so let me scale back a bit, the mere smell of another’s shit makes some angry in fact, as a point that I too smell just like that, but don’t want to face it within another one’s movement, to prove it, I’ve broke up with an ex-girlfriend for that, which is sad because I really wasn’t mad at her, but didn’t want to face up to my own shit too, get it.

Anger encompasses a lot of thing, like being angry that someone is looking at me crazy, and classifying a look as crazy is crazy, something I no longer crave to be, which enslaves me to the point of judging another for the way they look and looking at me, if looks could tell the real story of a person, this process would be easy to immerse within self, because everyone would be an open book and ready to forgive before they look, but look at how anger is making us angry, and strangely were apparently fine with that.

Erase those 11’s in the middle of your forehead, that could cause permanent wrinkles all over your face, then wonder why we’re getting old ever so gracefully, without realizing how we let anger grace our day, but hey I got wisdom, that the gray hair states, we relate to Moses or some of the other greats, from back in the day, that showed us back then what challenges we’d face, but didn’t take heed from the history we’ve placed in story books and literature to put a lid on the truth, that Anger is the corruption of me and you, so we would never realize the correction of self, and in the next post I’ll write out my correction to this selfish state of being, “Anger”.

To be continued…



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Re: Carlton's Journey To Life

Postby Carlton » 19 Jan 2019, 19:52

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Day 793: Anger (The Good/Bad/Ugly) Pt.3

The angry man stare can only lead to a headache, that awakes you from this energetic mind possession, with no energy left and get mad at that, then pray to God I won’t do that again, that’s a lie and turn right back around and do the same thing again, uncontrollably like why am I always so angry, that shows how we really don’t want to be this way, and stay far away from conflict as we possibly can, until the next person decides to get on your nerves, and deserve the rage we hold inside, thinking this rage is the learning curve for teaching them a lesson and so despise the point of correction that’s a blessing in disguise, just to hide behind the faces we make.


I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to think “For fucks Sake” in a moment of experiencing anger, when a stranger to me just don’t get it, instead of realizing and considering, this other person really don’t know me, and so my trigger points, that was ever so greatly pointed out by them, ever so gracefully, that placed me in a moment of anger, showing that I still have work to do in releasing myself from such points, being that I still harbor a reaction toward the slightest action of another, when doing/saying certain things around and towards me.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to have put on an angry face when someone has looked at me, and so became uncomfortable, in security of protecting my insecurities, that has secured a position in my expression, of self-judgement, thinking I’m not up to par with how I look, that we let society dictate in many aspects of our dress/body structure/skin tone and clothes, and so hide behind this wrinkly face, that says’, ‘WTF’ are you looking at, you wanna fight’, in spiting the point of correction, that lessens our opportunity for change.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not see/realize, how I ‘as a collective’ become a bedding for cancer to reside, when suppressing anger and holding it inside with no release point, and so lived my life in disgust, that may or have caused such dis-ease to formulate within my physical body, to clean up what I fail to take responsibility for, that is ultimately a detriment to my physical well-being if not careful, and so choose to blame this condition of things like cigarettes, although some have never partaken in such things in their life, which begs to question where do cancer really come from, then become angry at such anomalies occurring, instead of investigating the true meaning/nature behind it all, which you can find, HERE.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to simply became angry at things that are beyond my control.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to have expressed anger when I lose control of things, superficial, instead of being the expression of anger, when realizing, I have given up my control of self to my mind, in this lifetime and those of my past, and doing something about it, that’s a way to express anger in a ‘good’ way, without it being based in emotion.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to think/perceive/believe, this, that I am feeling within me, the constriction of chest, the tight lips, the aggressive demeanor, with butterflies in the stomach feeling, is me and normal, instead of realizing how this behavior is the encapsulation of fear in fact.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to express anger for being in fear of thing, without looking at what and why I fear certain things/people in my world, that cause me to be/become angry.


And so, the specificity for what we experience individually, is our points of correction, to be looked at investigated and corrected, that we can only do for ourselves, to stop these unwanted occurrences from happening within and as us, and affecting our way of living and that of others in our lives, that in some cases could be detrimental to our well-being, so the point of correction to anger is the perpetuator there of, being you and me. I a work in progress.

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Re: Carlton's Journey To Life

Postby Carlton » 25 Jan 2019, 22:39

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Day 794: The Practical Pricelessness of Practice

Picture perfect practice promotes precise pristine performance, where the norm is then, that we’ve become the best we can be, at what we’re attempting to do, and continue to grow within it, with no limit to what may come out of it, I mean I got it, that this is how we get ahead of the learning curve, that opens the door for self-expansion and live the example of what you’re setting, and betting on the point of setting an example because of the ample amount of understanding we’ve gained from the point we’ve practiced.

We should make it a point of practice to practice all the time, like we practice in our mind when repeating the same s***, then miss the obvious that I really need practice, like I practiced on my back flips when I was a kid, and that’s all I did, until I got it down pat and pat myself on the back for doing a good job, and when I got older didn’t practice a lot and became a jack of all trades without mastering a single thing.

The alleviation of pressure is to practice before time, so in real time moment we can stroll through a point, like following and living a corrective statement when walking a point – that subsides the nervousness when getting to a point of being in the spot lights, will you shine or will you dim, or will you go back into just blaming ‘Dem’ for looking at you crazy, stating I can’t believe them for looking at me crazy, when it’s us who decided not to practice, and got scared on the stage before we reacted in rage from the fear that we let possess us, in front of a crowd of people that came there to bless us, but what they found was an unrehearsed mess, and at best booed us until we got off the stage.

But, picking up from where we left off in the past from doing things we’ve learned and/or taught ourselves how to do, then stopped for some reason or another, or wanting to get to a point of mastery with something new, the resistance to practicing at it comes up, that I found and let slow my role in getting back into the full swing of things, which is an interesting point because I’ve become self-righteous about doing things from my past, which is really a point of where, when and what I experienced while doing these things back then, in this case DJing and doing performances, and so when having the opportunity to do them again and possibly make money from it, when offers come, this point comes up as an excuse, that ‘I don’t need practice’, which I do, and so resist practicing, then after I finally get to it, realize, ‘man I did need to practice’ and only then glad that I did so.

Now also an interesting point of practice in relation to process, is the need to practice what we/I commit myself to, more, where after correcting ourselves/myself on a point, it’s easy to forget the corrective statements that was written, to perpetuating an inaction when the point resurface, because of not remembering what we wrote, then find ourselves having to either go back and look up the point that was written, and/or re-write it out again, because of not remembering it due to the lack of practicing in real time that was also a point of commitment as well, therefore;


I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to reserve the point of practice to doing something entertaining in the field of entertainment, and not consider the importance of practicing in real time, the corrective statement I’ve committed myself to and follow through with it, so that when points resurface, I can take corrective action within it, that’s the best way of moving passed a point.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to suppress the point of practice through the resistance thereof, where the thought of not needing practice I let resonate within me in a moment of being cocky about something I’ve done well in the past, then getting to the point of practicing at it, and only then realize, ‘man I did need practice’, but leave the point of belief uninvestigated.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not make practice a point of doing daily, on things I want to get to and accomplish in my life, that would make my step towards them that much easier and quicker to achieve.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to have realized achievements is within the practice of something, but at times choose not to follow my own realizations.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to replace my practice (at times) with complacency, that keep me only at a certain level, height of understanding a thing, which is limiting to my growth within it. And so,

When and as I see myself limiting myself with the point of complacency, that’s a form of resistance to expanding myself in a way, thinking that just because I’ve done something well in the past, I still got it down pat, I stop and breathe. I see/realize/understand that there is always something more to be learned in what we do and with practicing at it, brings out the more within it, and so I commit myself to becoming the embodiment of practice, to practice things I know that would be of assistance to me, in the ever so expansion/growth and development of myself, to reach my utmost potential and make life much easier for myself and those around me in my world.

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Re: Carlton's Journey To Life

Postby Carlton » 31 Jan 2019, 21:40

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Day 795: Big Brother/Little Brother, Big Sister/Little Sister

Trading places and spaces in the revitalization of one another, shows no partiality to age, and hey, being big is not the End all to be all, we all have been little in a sense of size, but big with the lies that was told, that all wisdom comes with age and when you get old, and gray hear is just a powered wig created by the thoughts you think, and the thoughts you think is not who you really are, because there’s nothing new under the stars that hasn’t been thought out and done before, it’s just the first time we’ve caught wind of it, because all the times before, we let it pass us in the wind, by thinking we know more than what we really do, and do nothing about being told what we really need to know.

They say each one teach one, we’ve created to be an Adult’s job, then teach our children that life has to be hard, then part ways knowing our kids know how to survive, but stripped them from their innate essence of what it means to be alive, it’s as if we thrive on telling others what they need to do, without correcting ourselves on what we need to do, and won’t hear it coming from someone younger that you, unless they has more money than you, then that kid is smart, we should all listen to them, but if it was anything else we wouldn’t listen to them, and tell them who they think they talking to, don’t you know I’m quite a bit older than you, that doesn’t really matter, because what we each know holds weight, so why wait to learn from your own mistakes, when your younger brother or sister saw something that you chose to forsake, and tried to awaken you to look at it from their perspective.

Help comes in all different shapes and sizes, in the sense of Here - Equally with the Little - People to, that’s H.E.L.P. you may not get from someone older than you, that I’ve been “helped” my whole life by adults, and most of the time didn’t under stand the Adults, like who are these people and what planet are they from, because as it seems they’re not interested in my Fun, or well-being to be a happy go luck kid, and when I was happiest what when I was playing with kids, who taught me how to be happy all the time, that I then lost by being in my mind when I grew older and superficial things made me happy and forgot about really learning a thing.

But man, have times changed in more ways than one, where being set in my way was no more fun, and so found myself looking for the how I’ve gotten myself here, and low and behold I found the reason for being here, through listen to a 19 year old kid who shook my world apart, and from that moment my process started and most every thing I’ve learned has come from a little brother or sister, that originally spawned a blister of resistance within me, until the bubble I lived in happen to burst, and immersed myself back into playing with the cool kids.

But wait, this is not to say that being older or younger is an estranged thing, because age essentially is the actual length of time, months/years one has walked/lived a certain way/point/experience, that makes them able to assist you in your endeavors, no matter how old they are, through the sharing of their experiences and realization – makes those that has gone before us, older Or younger than you.

Maybe this world would have been a different place if the big brothers and sister, listened more to the little brothers and sisters, but who has time for what ifs, if we take the time to leave nothing unheard on either end, that could change the way we all live in this world, that makes cooperation and collaboration a normal thing and the relationships we have a more substantial thing, I mean the potential we have when living Oneness and Equality, promotes for a healthy lifestyle for all life here on Earth, if the mission is to birth ourselves into life from the physical, then I’ll listen and anyone who has something substantial to share and say, and follow suit. As we are all a work in Progress.

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Re: Carlton's Journey To Life

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Day 796: Make Up Artist

Foundation that don’t smear, with stable fingers that write lines that only the eyes can process, and once realized a blush could be in order, that requires no sticking of the lips to say I’m learning something here, I mean you can make s*** up, but you can’t make this shit up, and I’m always up for a good make over, if the making is the re-creating myself to the best possible version of me, by facing the faces I’ve made myself out to be.

The questioning of sense that it makes, only stands for common sense, or else the make up comes from a feeling or validation for what I’ve allowed myself to experience and want others to feel, make sense – that begets the suspense of another when suspended in a mind that only allows me to see pretty picture that creates a blissful feeling within me, that what I just made up is beautiful and useful, but pitiful after realizing, I’ve let myself fall into a pit of emotions in slow motion, when the make up I put on wasn’t pleasing in the eyes of another.

A smothering effect, “I’ve made up my mind” to not see what the mind really is, as that extra additive, that makes my life extra hard and passively accept the blame factor instead of doing something about it, living a ‘pout’ away from giving up, because I’ve let the idea of being spoiled replace planting a seed of change in the fertile soil of my body, that would sprout up into the ultimate tree of life for me to live in/like and existing as the fruit it would bare, uncovering the smothering effect, and dare to say my utmost potential.

As unconventional as it seems we dream of a time where all is one, and equal without taking the time to re-create our dreams to be meaningful, but would just make it up as we go alone in the meantime, thinking that time cures all things, but only store them until we go in and do a spring cleaning, that is the removal of makeup we’ve smeared across every walk of life in clear fashion, that would usher in ‘New life’ in orderly fashion to take a seat Here at the precipice of change, to becoming an Artist in service of Life, as the self we really are.

But by far our self-interest outweighs any self-improvement and proved it to ourselves that we care less about anything below the head, like wow, simply because if we can disregard that in which we use/care less for/know nothing about and want to leave, as the same thing that’s makes it possible for us to breathe/ eat/ experience/ interact with one another and enjoy things, shows that this “Interest” is not our own, I mean come on, how is it possible that we can Long for something, some place we’ve never seen, (Then next life), and not question this Longing for, in HOPES that it’s real WHEN’ we get there, I mean that’s the best makeup job I’ve ever seen, but still pointing out Facts won’t change a thing, if we’re not willing to replace the point of ‘Making’ to Self-Re-creating.

We’re all artist with the sense and ability to create our day, as we do, but is this doing just limited to redo’s before dozing off, waking up and doing it again, it’s a wonder we don’t like talking about this S***, because of statement like; “We don’t like talking about this S***, which closes the door and locks us in a room/ a life full of smelly shit, immune to the fume and claim Amnesty when someone is showing you a way out of it, like Wow, I’m just going to lay right here and keep caking on this Makeup, until we all choke on it and hope someone comes down with a breathing apparatus and sporadically release me from my own self bondage, (Mind you, I am not Partial, and this is NOT about Real Makeup, so don’t go there), but a point of believing we really have the power to make up our minds, instead of standing Equal to and One with it, AND correct the point of thinking #IM.IT#.

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