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DAY 4: SSSSSHHHHHHH!
Distraction definition: a thing that prevents someone from concentrating on something else.
“the firm found passenger travel a distraction from the main business of moving freight”
synonyms: diversion, interruption, disturbance, intrusion, interference, obstruction, hindrance
“he called these stories a distraction from the real issues”
I do still get ‘annoyed’ when I feel something is ‘distracting’ me from what it is that I want to do/am doing; something in which I want to dedicate my full concentration and efforts on, to do it to the best of my ability, without any external influence that might or is, or more specifically, that I ALLOW to influence my concentration on the thing that I am wanting to do/doing in real time.
When I look at so called ‘distractions’ in my life/that I dislike and that ‘annoy’ me, I see that I am definitely choosing to allow them to ‘annoy’ me, and affect me.
I mean, yes they are noises, yes they are sounds. In my experience and what I am writing out here, these distractions are in the forms of sounds/noises. Things that ‘throw me off’.
I see how I can change this ‘getting annoyed/frustrated’ and allowing sound/noise to affect me, into a stronger form of concentration that is in fact unwavering, no matter the sound/noise, no matter the volume level, no matter the ‘type’ of sound.
The type, being human sounds, lol, or, construction work for example, or, music, or wildlife.
I do tend to get easily annoyed at ‘external’ sounds, basically sounds that are not from me and are from EVERYTHING, but me.
Obvious point is I am never alone, and I am living here with all manner of noise. So first thing is to accept, allow and EMBRACE any and all noise. Understand that it WILL and DOES exist. Then, it is how much I allow it to affect me and my concentration and what I am doing. Do I stop what I am doing or alter what I am doing, or, change the activity that I am doing, until the noise has ‘lowered’ or changed? No. I just change my response from being affected by noise, to carrying on with the activity I am doing, absolutely whilst noise exists in the background.
I forgive myself that I have not accepted and allowed myself to be flexible and changeable based on the noise that exists in my external environment, such as increasing volume of activity that I am doing so that I can hear more easily based on external noises.
I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not be flexible when external sounds arise, and instead just desire to react in annoyance, as if I believe any external sounds should just STOP when I am doing something/concentrating on something, as if the world/life revolves around me, which it obviously does NOT.
I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to believe a ‘zone’ exists within/around me that ‘protects’ me from any external noise, which is obviously a myth and not real.
I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to ever desire a world/life that means to be silent all around me, purely so I can ‘enjoy’ my activities more without ‘interference’ from external life.
I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to believe sounds/concentration revolve around myself and my life, as if my life/priorities/activities are paramount and ‘worth more’ than others activities/priorities/life, which is obviously inequality and failure to accept each as a worthy life/activity.
When and as I see myself desiring to react in annoyance/frustration at any external sound which I believe is ‘pissing me off’ and ‘distracting’ me from what I am trying to do, I stop and breathe. I see, realise and understand that any external sound is EARTH, is LIFE, is EXISTENCE. I commit myself to ENJOY the external sounds of others, as a form of hearing others activities/lives and the enjoyment they derive from their activities and such, just as I do with my own activities and such.
I commit myself to accept others sounds based on any health related issues, any disease, which is NEVER an existence/sound which one ever WANTS or CHOOSES to exist as.
I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to believe that external sounds/people making external sounds are purely doing so to annoy me and frustrate me, instead of me understanding, seeing and realising that each are doing so for themselves, with themselves, by themselves, for THEM, and NOT for myself, and NOT for others, each do their own thing for them, and that is EARTH.