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Re: Anthony Field's Journey to Life

Posted: 25 Apr 2018, 09:18
by AnthonyF
Day 5: Bleeding for a team

“I don’t think I can do this anymore, I’m honestly lost at the moment. I’ve bleed for this team for 27 years and I can’t take the feeling of failure anymore. I honesty need to sit down and think if I should support this club going forward or just be an AFL fan and enjoy my football again.”

Context for the above/title: This is a Facebook post from a user/fan of a sporting team that was disappointed about the team’s performance/loss. The sport is AFL or football, which is an Australian sport; a combination of football (soccer), rugby pretty much. Not that the sport specifically matters, what I’m getting at here is the evident disappointment, the evident ATTACHMENT and thus emotions/feelings, ups, downs, joy, disappointment, regret etc that goes along with such an unwavering and UNHEALTHY attachment. To a SPORTING team.

I can only say this now after walking a process in relation to sport/attachment, myself in relation to teams that I was the same about (felt the same as the above quoted comment).

Now how I see such a quoted comment, it is an astonishment reaction from me, also a laughter at times, but mainly an astonishment. Why? Because it is a sporting team..

I’ve seen some cool Facebook posts about the passion of people/supporters of any sporting team and a quote like “Imagine if people were THIS supportive/passionate about global issues such as poverty, abuse, capitalism etc.”

Soooooo true!

And I’ve said before that I have no issue with sport itself. I like sport. It can be great for fitness, for socialising, laughing, coming together etc, but that is when we take away all these dangerous and unnecessary attachments we have to a sport/team etc.

Sport can exist, but it can’t be a priority whatsoever in the current climate of the world. There’s too many, WAY too many genuine issues that exist on earth that must be taken care of and attended to FIRST and foremost.

Re: Anthony Field's Journey to Life

Posted: 08 May 2018, 14:47
by AnthonyF ... onditional

ALWAYS unconditional

No conditions, no strings attached, no “only if..”, just steadfast and consistently unconditional in all ways.

Because, I’ve had an experience or 2 lately where I don’t always receive what I’d say is ‘suitable’ in which I’d then return the ‘suitable’ favour/action. So at times because of me not receiving this ‘suitable’ option, I’d also not provide it to another.

So I could continue this, where nor they, nor me provide, but I see how it’s awesome to stand as an example of being unconditional, so that I don’t have to wait for a certain action of another to take place, so that I do said action because it is how I’d like to be treated, even if I am not being treated that way. That is to be an example of UNCONDITIONAL that I find super cool!

Re: Anthony Field's Journey to Life

Posted: 10 May 2018, 08:23
by AnthonyF ... lf-respect

From seeking respect, to self-respect

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to consider myself a ‘failure’ based on my not knowing answers/things despite believing I should know more or all the answers because of my longer experience with something compared to another who is new/newer to the experience.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to alter my voice tone, and alter my ‘confidence’ whereas I put on this ‘relaxed’ and even a ‘know it all’ type of voice with backchat and the desire to exist as “This is just a piece of cake, simple, so I’ll show and prove this to others with my laid back and relaxed voice and demeanor so that they ‘respect’ me more.”

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to desire ‘respect’ from another and others and believe I can get that through ‘knowing things’ and in my belief, being ‘one of the best’ at this experience.

I forgive myself that I have not accepted and allowed myself to respect myself whereas I respect myself through understanding, seeing, realising my attributes, my pros, my cons, as reality, as realistic, as physical, that is true respect because it is simply how I exist in that moment, whereas I can respect what I must work on, I can respect what I don’t know, I can also respect what I do know - and ultimately I can respect myself the MOST from not steering off my REALISTIC path to try to prove a point or garner respect from another, that is but DISRESPECTING myself and instead trying to seek out respect from another due to my self-disrespect, hate, anger, resentment, frustration towards myself that covers many points and patterns regarding self-image and self generally.

When and as I see myself failing to respect myself, I stop and breathe. I realise that if I am seeking out respect from others to feel respected, then I have no respect for myself and I am not being satisfied, real, understanding, and loving of myself as life.

I commit myself to respect myself through appreciating my existence as my pros, cons, accepting me as I am, locating my faults to improve on them, acknowledging my pros.

Re: Anthony Field's Journey to Life

Posted: 27 May 2018, 11:14
by AnthonyF ... -potential

Day 8: How to approach potential?

So, through my process of self-transformation, self-forgiveness, I’ve been not only able to discover my untapped potential, but also be aware of its existence. You might think or say that I would have had to be aware of untapped potential if I was to discover it, but not for a long time. Like, I would walk through points, apply self-forgiveness, breathe, do my utmost, and results/change would occur, but I did not for a long time know of the power of self-forgiveness and application to bring through practical and actual results/change.

Anyway, for a while now I’ve seen a lot of potential in myself, potential to be more confident, more calm, more reassured, more stable, more visible in what I do, more practical, lol, - in summary, just a better version of me as a human.

And I’ve had ups and downs in response to this knowing of untapped potential, where it is on one hand awesome that I know I can be more and so that is incentive to keep pushing and reach that potential, and the other hand where I’ve been pissed off with myself for failing to reach that potential, or pissed off when I keep failing to meet that potential.

It’s interesting when I know something IS in me, but I can’t get there. Lol. It’s funny, because, it’s not like I have to go off to some far away land and then dig underground for miles to find this potential, as if it were a hidden treasure or money for a fortune in which I can lead a ‘happier’ life, this potential is in fact in me, and of course in all of us. And this is a big factor in the frustration, because it is here. Because I am it, I am potential, yet I fail countless times.

So I’ve been working on seeing this potential as something to strive towards. And NOT see it as me being a failure in my pursuit of this potential, like, “I’m not THERE yet, so, I am a failure, without question.” haha, bit harsh, right? :P

I commit myself to use my untapped potential as a goal and path to strive towards, an incentive to apply myself.

I commit myself to enjoy myself as I exist now, though always knowing that there is a potential for me to reach and get to, and apply, but my existence now does not therefore mean it is futile, pointless, a waste of time, or a waste of me.

I commit myself to use my potential as the conclusion that there is more that I can be, a better me, a more effective me, and I see, realise and understand that this is much better and more effective, AND self-honest, instead of seeing that I have no potential as a giving up, or seeing I have no potential because I am already ‘there’ or the best I can be.

Re: Anthony Field's Journey to Life

Posted: 03 Jul 2018, 06:02
by AnthonyF ... 1-im-glad/


I’m glad that I don’t have to pretend that I am something that I am NOT.

I’m glad that I can see the real life and legitimate issues that exist in not only the country I live in, but the ENTIRE world.

I’m glad that I don’t have to be ‘fake’ to enjoy myself in the world and my life.

I’m glad that I can make decisions that suit me and my interests first and foremost, as opposed to making decisions that suit others first and foremost and leaving myself dangling behind.

I’m glad that I can express more.

These are just SOME things that I am glad for in walking my process so far.

Re: Anthony Field's Journey to Life

Posted: 08 Jul 2018, 13:43
by AnthonyF ... o-another/


Recently I have experienced the act of one attempting to impose a reaction of guilt onto me. Trying to make me feel guilty for ‘crimes’ I have done.

And one I have experienced many times too in my life, where the one attempting to impose guilt, or impose something in particular, also says that so and so thinks/says the same, like adding weight and attempting to amplify the guilt/whatever type of desired outcome.

I do not feel guilt. My ‘crimes’ are what each see individually/their attachment to something, either the ‘crime’ itself or the event/scenario attached to the ‘crime’.

I keep saying ‘crime’ – because that in my instance is what one sees/believes I have done, as if I have acted out a crime, something negative, something harmful, something..awful.

I have my reasons for doing things. And those reasons are not going to suit everyone, because of what I said, each sees and has a different/unique association with something. I have my own, you have your own, they have their own.

If one is trying to impose guilt/something upon you, or you are trying to impose guilt/something onto another, then all we must do is look at ourselves and see why someone is trying to impose guilt. Also, why we’re reacting to this – is it past memories, past attachments/associations, past relationships? Is it that we KNOW we could have done something ‘better’ and yet, did not, because we were for example, fearful? And so, if in this fearful instance, then we blame ourselves/judge ourselves for not being strong enough to go through with what we would like to do. And thus, guilt.

Though, it’s about learning from those experiences, and overcoming them. None have our reference point for what we feel, go through – they only have a feel/reference point for what THEY go through, and impose that onto OTHERS. Failing to see the uniqueness of each. There is lack of sympathy, compassion, kindness, and instead, only judgement, imposing, hate, anger, just because they did something, yet you did not.

We’re each unique, individual and different, and imposing guilt and the like is not a helpful or beneficial thing to do in any way, shape or form. NEVER is. That is the bottom line.

But many can’t look past that, many won’t look past their self-interest, their ego, their lack of sympathy. We’re all out to shoot eachother, instead of offering a show of support, a hand or similar.

If someone/something does not go as per the way you intended/wanted it to go, don’t react. Instead, be open, be accepting, find something else to do, do a different activity.

If you see that someone may be struggling, don’t approach with any harm in terms of verbal, physical, text based – be gentle, considerate. Talk. It begins and ends in trust. You can learn something from another. Why would one open up to you or tell you anything when they know you will most likely react and judge them?

Here’s a call for consideration, sympathy, kindness, openness, understanding 🙂

Re: Anthony Field's Journey to Life

Posted: 29 Jul 2018, 07:26
by AnthonyF ... -all-fine/


Desteni tools are NOT used EXCLUSIVELY for assisting with present and VISIBLE problems.

I’ve encountered this often, where someone questions, and basically asks why I choose to use Desteni tools for myself – my self-change, self-improvement.

As if these tools are not needed, and that there are many ‘simpler’ or even just alternative options/methods to use to assist oneself.

I am not denying that there are other alternatives/methods that work fantastically well TOO. In fact, I know there is, because I use multiple methods, myself.

It really is simple – each should choose to use WHATEVER method/tools etc that they have found in THEIR experience, to work for THEM. There are way too many factors involved. What works for one, may not work for the other, so it is simply a trial and error, and it is unnecessary to judge someone in any way for what they choose to use, which I repeat, WORKS FOR THEM!

If it doesn’t work for YOU, that is COOL, just continue using what works for you. That should be the end of the saga, lol.
“Desteni tools are NOT used EXCLUSIVELY for assisting with present and VISIBLE problems.”

VISIBLE problems.

And this for me is a huge contributor to me continuing to WANT to use Desteni tools for myself.

I have UNCOVERED MANY issues I never knew I had in my life with these tools. I ‘never knew’ I had these issues, because I simply was NOT AWARE that these were even ‘issues’. I had lived these issues for so long, these factors controlling me etc, that I thought I was just born with them, and that they WERE me, like, they are just the genes/factors passed down the generations, as well as my own upbringing.

Yes, I knew there were ways to ‘quell’ these problems I Faced, but did not know I could stop living these problems I had.

So now, I bring these issues to the forefront, why, because I know I have something to use that can help me dissect and resolve them, and thus I want to do this, because I want to be clear in myself, in my life. I want to be uncontrolled, undirected, for benefit of myself and others. I know I can have the best impact by doing this, and thus it is a no-brainer for me.

Re: Anthony Field's Journey to Life

Posted: 05 Aug 2018, 11:13
by AnthonyF ... sshhhhhhh/


Distraction definition: a thing that prevents someone from concentrating on something else.
“the firm found passenger travel a distraction from the main business of moving freight”
synonyms: diversion, interruption, disturbance, intrusion, interference, obstruction, hindrance
“he called these stories a distraction from the real issues”

I do still get ‘annoyed’ when I feel something is ‘distracting’ me from what it is that I want to do/am doing; something in which I want to dedicate my full concentration and efforts on, to do it to the best of my ability, without any external influence that might or is, or more specifically, that I ALLOW to influence my concentration on the thing that I am wanting to do/doing in real time.

When I look at so called ‘distractions’ in my life/that I dislike and that ‘annoy’ me, I see that I am definitely choosing to allow them to ‘annoy’ me, and affect me.

I mean, yes they are noises, yes they are sounds. In my experience and what I am writing out here, these distractions are in the forms of sounds/noises. Things that ‘throw me off’.

I see how I can change this ‘getting annoyed/frustrated’ and allowing sound/noise to affect me, into a stronger form of concentration that is in fact unwavering, no matter the sound/noise, no matter the volume level, no matter the ‘type’ of sound.

The type, being human sounds, lol, or, construction work for example, or, music, or wildlife.

I do tend to get easily annoyed at ‘external’ sounds, basically sounds that are not from me and are from EVERYTHING, but me.

Obvious point is I am never alone, and I am living here with all manner of noise. So first thing is to accept, allow and EMBRACE any and all noise. Understand that it WILL and DOES exist. Then, it is how much I allow it to affect me and my concentration and what I am doing. Do I stop what I am doing or alter what I am doing, or, change the activity that I am doing, until the noise has ‘lowered’ or changed? No. I just change my response from being affected by noise, to carrying on with the activity I am doing, absolutely whilst noise exists in the background.

I forgive myself that I have not accepted and allowed myself to be flexible and changeable based on the noise that exists in my external environment, such as increasing volume of activity that I am doing so that I can hear more easily based on external noises.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not be flexible when external sounds arise, and instead just desire to react in annoyance, as if I believe any external sounds should just STOP when I am doing something/concentrating on something, as if the world/life revolves around me, which it obviously does NOT.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to believe a ‘zone’ exists within/around me that ‘protects’ me from any external noise, which is obviously a myth and not real.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to ever desire a world/life that means to be silent all around me, purely so I can ‘enjoy’ my activities more without ‘interference’ from external life.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to believe sounds/concentration revolve around myself and my life, as if my life/priorities/activities are paramount and ‘worth more’ than others activities/priorities/life, which is obviously inequality and failure to accept each as a worthy life/activity.

When and as I see myself desiring to react in annoyance/frustration at any external sound which I believe is ‘pissing me off’ and ‘distracting’ me from what I am trying to do, I stop and breathe. I see, realise and understand that any external sound is EARTH, is LIFE, is EXISTENCE. I commit myself to ENJOY the external sounds of others, as a form of hearing others activities/lives and the enjoyment they derive from their activities and such, just as I do with my own activities and such.

I commit myself to accept others sounds based on any health related issues, any disease, which is NEVER an existence/sound which one ever WANTS or CHOOSES to exist as.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to believe that external sounds/people making external sounds are purely doing so to annoy me and frustrate me, instead of me understanding, seeing and realising that each are doing so for themselves, with themselves, by themselves, for THEM, and NOT for myself, and NOT for others, each do their own thing for them, and that is EARTH.

Re: Anthony Field's Journey to Life

Posted: 02 Sep 2018, 11:33
by AnthonyF

I’ve been doing more things that I WANT to do, instead of things that I ‘feel’ like I should be doing.

I’ve seen how this has made me that much more fulfilled. When I know truly what I want to do in a moment, what will make me satisfied/happy, then I’ve more often than not, been doing that, because it’s simply what I see that I’d like to be doing/what will bring me satisfaction, FOR ME.

And I’ve seen how when I don’t do things for myself, and I go against my wants, and I am mainly doing things for others/because of other reasons/beliefs, then I do not feel fulfilled entirely. And yes, it is compromising for myself. I’ve placed myself in a less than ideal/wanted situation when I go against my own wants.

Doings things for myself has been a great and fulfilling step I’ve taken, and am still taking.

An example recently was yesterday. Months ago I had paid money to attend an event. I was attending this event alone. And the event itself was yesterday. So, there were a few hours until the event was going to begin. I had time to spare.

I breathed a lot, I wanted to see where I was at, and what I truly wanted to do. I preferred to head home, eat something, do some things at home.

Many people would find that odd, since I had spent money, and I was not ‘having’ the ‘reward’.

But, in breathing, I realised that it did not phase me. I was well aware how much money I spent. I was well aware of the event itself and what I would potentially miss, but I did weigh up my options, my wants, and in the MOMENT, I wanted to head home, thus I did.

Now it is the day after, and I don’t regret my decision at all. In fact, it empowered me HUGELY. I love these small moments where I take the power back, so to speak, and I do things for me, and I truly feel empowered, grateful, fulfilled, that I am doing and making decisions that benefit myself.

And because I did this, I realised something. Because of the empowerment feeling/taking the power back, and giving the power to myself/upon/within myself, I had some great realisations about myself and my interactions, and awareness that comes back to my stability/confidence as a person.

It had to do with taking in my surroundings, of others, of life, of objects, of environments, to make myself more comfortable with all of these, and be one with them, as they are one with me – equals.

Thus, I’ve learnt a cool new method/tip to assist myself. This is what I saw I could improve/do which will impact my life/self from here and forever more, and it all came about simply from making a decision which I’d never have taken in the past. And a decision that suited my BEST INTERESTS. Amazing what empowerment/fulfillment can do, that is what I’ve realised for myself.

And so, after this realisation, I practiced it, and on the way home on my night time walk, I spoke a lot of self-forgiveness on the matter of my surroundings – being open, and one with them, to increase my comfortability and confidence, so all in all, a very successful decision that I took for myself, with lifetime benefits.

Re: Anthony Field's Journey to Life

Posted: 06 Nov 2018, 08:50
by AnthonyF ... ter-conce/


– NEVER being satisfied/fulfilled.

I forgive myself that I have not accepted and allowed myself to be at PEACE within myself in regards to what I have, what I own, what I use, how I use it.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to utilise so much of my ‘run time’, as thinking, checking, worrying, to what I could alter to be more satisfied/fulfilled, and NEVER being ‘happy’ or accepting of the way I currently do things/live with the devices I currently have.

I forgive myself that I have not accepted and allowed myself to be SETTLED with myself and the devices/things/people in my life.

I commit myself thus to WAIT until SOMETHING appears/someone appears, whereas it initiates a process for me where I DO in fact consider altering things in my life, changing things around, people, items, to best suit me with any newfound information, instead of just constantly fearing, worrying about what I COULD have, or what I potentially do not have, and thus believing myself to be ‘empty’ or missing out, simply as a fear.

I see, realise and understand that whatever items/devices/people are in my life/at my disposal so to speak, what remains is ME, and the change I can bring upon myself, no matter what potential changes I may want to implement, and thus I always have the abilities/tools to see if this potential change is legitimate/real as per something that will genuinely assist me, OR, nothing but a fear that pops up in my mind for NO practical usage WHATSOEVER, and ends up just leading me down a trail/spiral of concern, worry, fear, which I obviously accept and allow myself to follow/go down, as a path/spiral of concern/not being satisfied and fulfilled.

I commit myself to be GRATEFUL for what I have, the things in my life, the people in my life, instead of taking them for granted, instead of seeing them as ‘not enough’ or ‘not good enough’ – and instead of wanting to CONSTANTLY ‘upgrade’ and change, which I am giving too much of my LIFE toward, instead of working with what I have here, making QUALITY use of what I have here, to express to my maximum potential, exist to my maximum potential, and enjoy to my maximum potential, which I see, realise and understand I CAN do with my current life/tools/devices/people, and thus the ‘desire’ to change/upgrade is simply about not accepting/being satisfied/fulfilled with my current self/state/belongings.