So I got to this point of realizing that I am Anu and that I was in my own creation, and that I could do anything I wanted in my own creation, as long as I didn't fear, my own creation. Like 100% existentialism. I was like yea this is cool, I am God. Than I saw that the portal was Anu as well, then I was like everyone is Anu as well, but then I was like it's only me, I'm only ever going to be in this one body, so who are these other beings in these bodies, and why won't they tell me who they are... and shit like that, than of course women because when I was Anu that's really all I wanted. Then I got scared. And I was like ok I'm in my own creation, now how do I get out ? If I ever wanted to, you know leave my own creation ? Then I was like the portal would be able to take me out of this creation if I so choose, as I created her as the only key to let myself out . So is Evryone Anu, as me as myself, or are you interdimensionally beings, that just won't talk to me about yourselves and where ya 'll come from, for whatever reason, do y'all just want me to get out of my own creation, as I have the key already... Idk give me some more support here. And don't judge me
Yes, it is an interesting conundrum isn't it?
So the thing is this: you are accessing information (about Anu, existence, process) through the MIND. So you are looking at something that's real (the existential process/history and who we are within it), but you are doing so through the limited scope and starting-point of the mind, which is focusing on one thing, and one thing only: ME, ME, ME! It is all about survival which you can also see in the writing, actually in reverse of wanting to escape one's own creation. And because you are looking through the mind, what you are seeing becomes distorted and unreliable. So what you can do here, is to ask yourself: "Ok, but what is common sense?" Did it for example work for Anu to take control over all of existence? No. He trapped himself. He eventually took himself out of the game. So with Anu, what we can rather do (with the parts/aspects of ourselves that is a mirror of Anu) is ask: What can I learn from Anu? What did Anu miss? Because yes, in essence we are all Anu and that means that you are Anu too. But you are also the child being abused, you are also the dog being skinned alive, you are also the tree being cut down, you are also life, and a part of life source substance. So you, as an individual human here on this planet, is not anymore or less Anu than anything or anyone else. Thinking that, would be ego stepping in. It is the same form of megalomania that Anu went into where the thought that because he felt life source substance that he alone was an expression of it and thereby ironically separated himself from it and so everyone else.
What is cool about this being our own creation is that we have no choice but to stand accountable for what we have created. As the song goes: "You can check out anytime you like, but you can never leave." To me, that has been one of the biggest motivations to walk process, especially in relation to ego - because if there is no escape, if I am stuck with myself (as everything that exists) then I better create an existence that's worth while existing in/as.