Hey Laura - cool. I suggest to take these points to your thread wherein we will be walking with them to start off with in terms of what you have written/ opened up for yourself recently. You can take the entire writing if you see it is pertinent and walk through with the necessary Self Forgiveness.I suppose it has to do with me in the beginning speaking about desteni to her from the starting point of wanting to share information, knowledge, but i was not even living it yet.
So that also created consequences
i mean probably she was showing to me that i was only focusing myself on breathe all the time, but wanting to suppress some things, because i didn't started directly through writing. I also started sharing and sharing and wanting others to see this, and she saw that, yet with her reaction it was very difficult to speak.
As you can see the point of not directing yourself through writing then creates a layer of knowledge and ideas of process instead of actually doing so, which is how most of the people can create several ideas and judgments about what we do without them giving themselves the opportunity to walk-it themselves. So, we stop projecting any knowledge and information and instead live it- become it. It's way more simple to share it as an actual integrated aspect of yourself other than trying to prove someone 'that you have changed' or anything like that, in the end the point is about you-yourself supporting you. Any reactions or considerations of people seeing such 'change' are irrelevant, as you are doing this for you within the understanding of the greater context that this process is for.
For all practical reasons, walking the information as an actual living-process is what is suggested - any judgment that comes from a fence-sitting point is then only a knowledge and information based judgment = irrelevant in all cases.
Thanks for sharing.