This is a start. The cool point you can look at here is that, doesn't matter which gender we are, we are all aware of our personalities, ego and any other quirks that we have held as memories that turn into a drag that we live out as 'who we are.'
What I've found the most supportive here is to essentially write the most prominent current experience within you and your current day to day living, so that writing becomes a habit to establish yourself and within that, beginning to write Self-Forgiveness to start walking the process of realizing 'who you are' through your own words.
I agree that for now, you can focus on establishing self-communication wherein you write-you and gift yourself the opportunity to - for once and for all - stop the rollercoaster that we have made up of our lives here.
I found an interesting typo when you said: I wanted Equality. I wanted the world to except me.
So, it's interesting that we may all want Equality, but we definitely have to begin with Self-Equality wherein we walk our process to Accept ourselves - regardless of who and what we have been - and create a new starting point of our every day living. Because, what would be the point of continuing reinforcing judgments imposed onto our own lives? Nothing else but eating of the same battle-soup that is cooked within our mind.
So, now that you are here, suggest to start writing about your current experience and take one single experience that you can see is the most prominent one, and write the entire memory/ event out. That's how you go taking a single point every day to walk it through writing, this ensures that you are always reflecting back on yourself through your own writings. And, the forum is here to support with further feedback on Self Forgiveness and establishing Self-Honesty to begin with.
Cool - thanks for sharing