Thank you Marlen !
Que the self forgiveness and self honestly.
what I am attempting here is truly a discovery of self - through self expression.
Who I am , is very much measured against and reflected by who I want to be.
Its conscious choice that we are undertaking.
One of my many fortune cookie sayings:
"If you don't think for yourself, someone else will think for you"
slightly related -
"If you have hang out with stupid people, you will do stupid things"
I've been struggling for the longest time with my cognitive dissidence.
Who
What
When
Where
Why
and How?
Who am I
What do I want to do
When am I going to do it
Where am I going
Why I am going there
and most importantly
How am I going to do it
I am me!
I participate in a martial art, I belong to a martial arts club, I am a martial artist
I paint, I get paid to paint, I am a painter
I play guitar, I write songs, I am a musician
I desire women, I date women, I am womanizer (minus the negative connotation)
I smoke weed, I get stoned, I am a stoner.
I drink, I get drunk, I am alcoholic
I hear and I listen, I observe, I am an observer
I want to live in a better world, I want leave a better world when I am gone.
When am I going to make that leap.
I am going to build or join a community of like minded individuals.
I'm going have to marinate little more on this and dive deep, and hold myself accountable.
If I really want to live in a better world, why do I allow myself to participate in systems of suffering?
Because its easy.
This world was here long before I was. And continue to exist long after I have pass and faded from memory.
little rambling - but thanks for reading and the feedback
I do appreciate the forum and all its participates.
-Lewis