Starting self forgiveness

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Christopher
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Trapped in relationship

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Since a time ago i am trapped in a relationship of codependency and abuse, where i don't allowed myself to live and express my life on a independent way and enjoy my life and i decided to cut everything until look myself with the force to keep emotionally and mentally stable.

I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to giving up my life for fear to cut my old relationship.

I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to feel scared to cut my old relationship to having allowed myself the emotional codependency.

I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to feel scared to leave my old relationship to having allowed myself the fear of loneliness.

I forgive myself that i haven`t accepted and allowed myself to look beyond my old relationship, emotions and feelings.

I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to believe that doesn`t exist anymore before my relationship.

I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to keep me wander in my memories of my old relationship when i feel that i need the phisycal contact, sex, kisses with my ex without allowing myself to take a step.

I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to keep me busy in my mind after broken with my ex.

I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to feel bitter, pain and keep me busy in my mind.

I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to be manipulated through a relationship.

I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to feel scare to conclude my cicles with my old relationship despite of the abusive that can be

I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to keep me trapped into a cycles of a relationship despite of don`t recieve the same of i am giving.
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i forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to stall my life for keep me loving my ex partner.

i forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to keep me loving my partner despite of have been an abussive relationship between both.

i forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to keep myself in relationships between three people.

i forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to tolerate betrayals and infidelities in my relationships to having allowed myself to put the feelings, emotions or another person over myself.

I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to tolerate intermittence in my relationships.

I forgive myself that i haven`t accepted and allowed myself to valorate myself and expand myself in others areas of my life to having allowed myself to participate in abusive relationships, between three people.

i forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed to keep myself using my mind generating feelings of hope and expectations of the possible return of my ex partner to haven`t allowed myself to transcend correctly the cycles, emotions and feelings about my ex relationship.

i forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to assume a position of impossibilitie to trascend my ex relation to having allowed myself keep me thinking and fantasizing about a possible return of my ex.

i forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to look for another relationship, sex or love with the purpose of try of delete my memory of the old relationship.

I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to feel empty having break with my partner.

I forgive myself that i haven`t accepted and allowed myself to see this process and this part of my life how a process of growth.

i forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to victimize myself and feel that my life doesn`t worth it within process of break.

When i am see that i that i am putting myself on victim position, i stop and breathe, i realise that exist many things in the life besides keep me trap into feelings and emotions about a relationship.

When i am see that i am looking for sex or other relationship with the purpose of delete my memories about my ex relationship, i stop and breathe, i realise that is necesary a process of understand how function the mecanism of relationship to diminsh the possibilities of repeat the same patterns over and over again.

I commit myself to work inside and outside of myself.

I commit myself to start to leave this position of victim and look for things that be productive for my life.
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Influenced by the dimensions.

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I forgive myself that i haven`t accepted and allowed myself to close this cycle of the unnecesary relationships inside my mind to having allowed myself to believe that i am influenced dimensionally.

I forgive myself that i've accepted and allowed myself to keep me trapped in the idea of i am influenced dimensionally.

I forgive myself that i haven`t accepted and allowed myself to go out from the idea of be influenced by the dimensions.

I forgive myself that i`ve accepted and allowed myself to keep inside my mind during much time to having allowed myself that i can comunicate with dimensions.

I forgive myself that i haven't accepted and allowed myself to realise that if i keep myself in my mind within the idea of i am comunicating with dimensions it deviates me of the physical existence, my daily activities and my inner stabiblitie.

I forgive myself that i've accepted and allowed myself to deviate myself from my projects to having allowed myself to believe that the dimensional existence is giving support to me.
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Re: Starting self forgiveness

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The last part of this year i dedicaded a little time to learn about trading of cryptocurrencies, that awaken my atention, mi anxiety and the greed, i started to fantasize about my future and my wishes, i wanted to be millonaire in a short period of time.

I realised that the crypto echosystem can be a solution for much troubles in this world, is descentralized money system but is become a bet games and i am participating in that irresponsibly, i believe that i must to make a inner cleaning before of start to participating in that, i must to left fears and greed and within this generate pasive incomes in this time when is difficult to get a work and if exist the possibilitie of make much money, look for way of contribute to build a new world and let go my selfish side.

I forgive myself that i`ve accepted and allowed myself to judge money to having allowed myself the belief of the money is the cause of the evil in this world without realize that isn`t the reason, the reason is the bad administration of money, the use of money how a tool of competition and self definition.

I forgive myself that i`ve accepted and allowed myself to use my resources irresponsibily.

I forgive myself that i`ve accepted and allowed myself to feel resistance to generate resources for myself and my enviorment to having allowed myself judging the money.

I realise that the money is a resource to exchange assets, isn`t a tool for be more than others or having more than others.

I commit myself to use my resources in productive way, without let myself carried to my impulses, emotions and feelings.
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Re: Starting self forgiveness

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I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed to resist write self forgiveness.

I forgive myself that i haven`t accepted and allowed myself to recognize the patters that keep myself traped in resistances where i hide my laziness, lack of interest of share and lack of discipline.

I forgive myself that i have`t accepted and allowed myself to use the time my time in an uproductive way.

I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself made self forgiveness from the starting point of fullfill with others.

I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to react negtively and resist to write self forgiveness to having considerated this how an obligation or duty to others.

I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to resist to write self forgiveness.

I forgive myself that i haven`t accepted and allowed myself to consider the self forgiveness how a tool of support myself.

I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to avoid the write the self forgiveness to having allowed myself to closed in myself in the same cycles over and over again.

I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to keep mysenf in inner wars, back chats to hide myself some patterns of laziness and lack of interest.

Where i see that i am resisting, deniying to write daily, i stop and breathe, i realize that the writing uses a little part of my time and is a tool to suport myself, know myself and dont use the mind unnecesarily.
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Desteni videos.

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Hello, I would like to ask any administrator who has access to the videos of desteni the favor of remove all the available videos that is related to my life experience, thanks!
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