I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to become a sensitive person in a way of it being a hinderance to integrating and become equal with my enviroment.
I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to become scared or anxious if there is to much noise or high emotional/feeling based people in my enviroment where i will shut down and give up in looking to walk with them or in the enviroment in a way of self expression.
I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to program myself to give up at the sound of loud or high energy people based on giving up to my mom and dad when they would scream and yell at me to submit to them, and i would eventually do this because i disliked the experience i accepted within myself of fear and uncomfortability based on the high pitch of their voices and force at which they took within the points they were trying to convey to me.
I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to blame my enviroment and/or the people in my enviroment of the way i am experiencing myself as uncomfortable, anxious, and/or fearful within me and thus become disempowered within myself as i live this out with the action of giving up and allowing myself to submit and suppress myself.
I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to go into blame toward my parents for making me feel this way when i see, realize, and understand they equally where going based on their own acceptances and allowances and thus they are not to blame as i am the one that accepted and allowed myself to react in such a way as suppression and submitting to authority as i have become the living of the word sensitive and inferior as a belief that i can't handle such noises and experiences with people.
I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to believe i am weakened based on the way i feel internally with energy, instead of seeing, realizing, and understanding that i can transform these experiences through understanding that i have to take full responsibility of myself as the experiences in these moments to be able to stand within them, embrace the energy as me, and live new words that will support with stability and self direction to transform the energy experience into a support for self.
I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to blame authority and my parents for me feeling weakened and inferior and thus too sensitive, when i see, realize, and understand i gave my power away to such individuals so i wouldn't have to take full responsibility of myself in all moments and direct me.
I commit myself to live the words self responsibility and self creation in all moments so i can empower myself to live anew as i embrace all that is here as me in my living and transform it into self support as i created it for myself through my actions.
I commit myself to redefine the word sensitive to remind me that through self understanding i can create my enviroment in many cases but others i can not and here i commit myself to direct myself in the way of living words of calm, physical movement, and groundedness by breathing in and out slowly and grounding my awareness into my body moving with the breath and the physical body as the energy releases back to the earth.
I commit myself to not speak if possible until i am grounded in myself and decide who i will be in that moment.
I commit myself to live self honesty as i decide who i will be in the moment of becoming stable pushing my self direction to express in moments that the opportunity is here as well as finding ways to support solutions if it is able to be seen within myself and can be shared.