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Re: Starting self forgiveness

Posted: 04 Dec 2019, 10:31
by Christopher
I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to wish of revenge against the system, politics, big bussinessman, religious system to having allowed myself to adbdicate my responsibility in this institutions.

I forgive myself that i haven`t accepted and allowed myself to see that i am equally responsible than the institutions and organizations for all within the actual context of the world.

I forgive myself that i haven`t accepted and allowed myself to educate myself about the system operation to having allowed myself to abdicate my responsibility in institutions and religious system.

I forgive myself that i haven`t accepted and allowed to participate and coperate in the creation of a new world.

I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to feel anxious to participate in the creation of a new world.

I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to feel scare of the future when i am turning conscious of some events that will happen.

I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to loss empathy when i am obssesed of change the world.

I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to wish of change the world throught the anger.

I forgive myself that i haven`t accepted and allowed myself to forget that change myself is the first step.

When i am see that i am judging, reacting with anger agaist the "guiltys" of the system, i stop and breathe, i realize that we are individually responsible to all events, and therfore, look for solutions is my job and the job of all.

When i am wishing to change world thought the anger and judgment, i stop and breathe, i realize that all us have the possibilitie of change therfore the judgment and anger is unnecesary.

I commit myself to change myself and be the living example to my enviorment.

I commit myself to get out of my little bubble.

Mind civil war.

Posted: 23 Dec 2019, 09:23
by Christopher
Mind Civil War..

In this weekends, i was read a lot of comentaries, only fights between people by their ideologic differences. I realized of the little cappacity of investigate and educate of the people and how this has been a starting point of a mental civil war.

We are in a context of educate ourselves about the economy and realize ourselves how is possible this inequality for obtain the solution, we have to wake up and realize that this goes beyond of the political institutions and ideologies, this is an individual process of education.

The economy in Chile is composed in the mining, in all south american contries there were coups.
I was investigating this and i realize that this coups was impulsated to privatize the natural resources and then install a "neoliberal" system that consist of remove the power to state below the individual freedom, and this perspective of freedom gives the opportunity of causes damage to others or not, support others or not.

Currently we have many foreign miner companys that doesn't support the state to invert in education system, food system, health system, etc.

All is based on individual benefit, and the constitution of this country is based on give all privileges to little economic groups.

When i start to wake up, i felt a little wish of kill to all owners of this companys :P.

I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to feel anger, hate agaist the people that support the actual system without realize that they're not informated about anything of this system.

I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to look for fights with people that support the current system and to haven`t allowed myself to see that is unnecesary to change the believes and ideologys of others.

I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to wish of make justice thought the violence and anger.

When i see that i am figthing with others when they're in disagree with me, i stop and breathe, i realize that is unnecesary to charge myself emotionally against others, i realize that i can`t pretend to be accepted to others.

I commit myself to contribute with others, initially educate myself and educate myself and before support others to the extent of possible.

Re: Starting self forgiveness

Posted: 25 Dec 2019, 23:01
by mikelammers
Very cool. Enjoy your own bravery! Oh and english lessons. Self forgiveness speeds it up although it might not feel that way.

Re: Starting self forgiveness

Posted: 29 Dec 2019, 06:38
by Christopher
mikelammers wrote: Very cool. Enjoy your own bravery! Oh and english lessons. Self forgiveness speeds it up although it might not feel that way.
Yes bro

Re: Starting self forgiveness

Posted: 29 Dec 2019, 06:40
by Christopher
[bbvideo]https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=eQx0eT0_OdU&t=509s[/bbvideo]
Goodbye to all

Re: Starting self forgiveness

Posted: 02 Jan 2020, 04:13
by Kristina
Christopher - what do you mean 'goodbye to all'???

Re: Starting self forgiveness

Posted: 09 Jan 2020, 01:57
by Christopher
Kristina wrote:
02 Jan 2020, 04:13
Christopher - what do you mean 'goodbye to all'???
Currently, i`m not in a good period, im very stressed by much events that i can`t explain, but i like to particpate here, i know that here are people with the initiative to change the world and their lifes and this is very nice to me, but in this moment there are things that scape from my hands and for many effort that i made is difficult to stabilize myself, i will return when i see that things are quiet, i wait for don`t return alone.

The origin of my resistance.

Posted: 10 Jan 2020, 07:33
by Christopher
Lately i realized that my process is based on impulse myself to integrate myself to system of relationships and sex and this causes me a inner war because i don`t want to orientate my life in this aspects within this system, i consider that is a lost of time and a long term is bored also we create a dependency of relationships. When i decided to stop this orientation of sex and relationships my life it goes a hell, pain, discomfort, headche, lack of concentration in my work, bad character, unnecesary reactions, etc.

I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to think in sex and relationships.

I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to close myself to expand others areas of my life to give atenttion to sex and relationships.

I commit myself to do activities to support myself and dont participate in my mind and emotions.

[bbvideo]https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=0ogMdhi1XDA&t=1318s[/bbvideo] if i die..unnecesarely and unfairly i believe that should have consequences.