In my dream I am in a room with one other person and we are sitting at a small table ‚doing something‘ which involved using little Lego pieces. In the dream this room is supposed to function like a prison and I am being prevented from leaving the room. At one point in the room I deviate from my script and there is a guard now in the room. The first thing I do is I start throwing handfulls of Lego pieces at his face (because my pockets were filled with Lego’s). This seems to have no effect on him. In his hand he holds a little device that is designed to put me to sleep by aiming it at me. As I look at him I see him pushing the button of his device and a little red light on the device turns on. At the same time I have the understanding that if I direct myself the device will not be able to affect me. As a means to direct myself I start singing very loudly and as I am singning I notice that the device has no effect on me. I am not becoming sleepy at all. I walk up to the guard and start bashing his head against the wall.
My perspective: the room with the guard representing the Mind and mechanisms that I have been using to ‚put myself to sleep‘ such as ‚apathy‘ and ‚irregular sleep‘, - that I have changed in the past weeks. Now that I look at it the Lego literally represent ‚building blocks, so I am busy creating something. It was nice to be able to walk free from control up to the guard. The bashing of his head against the wall... part of me has no problem with it. It has influences from a movie (a guy bashing another guys head against a table) I saw recently and I know that when watching the scene in the film I was experiencing an energetic reaction. Deep down a desire for such violence – so perhaps some investigation to do on that level.
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Cool interpretation, I would also add the action of kind of attacking back to that which you perceive has power/authority over you, the 'throwing' of the legos to me can be a similar action to when we argue for our limitations or 'throw tantrums' in emotional manners. And so perhaps the ultimate point of the head bashing, even if influenced by the movie, then perhaps looking if this relates to an experience of being 'overpowered' by your mind as the guard, feeling inferior to it at times to the point that you feel that you need to fight 'it' off or 'exterminate it' in such a way - even more so considering if there was any contempt towards it... so perhaps considering if there are aspects in you that you are still judging and so keeping contempt towards it, something you haven't yet forgiven yourself for, something you haven't embraced and so in that attempt to 'get rid of it' you decide to 'exterminate it' through the bashing.... that's what came up within me.
In any case, I share this audio of contempt that I just recorded and it might assist to open up something... the adjustment being that this is not about holding contempt towards someone else, but yourself - and yes ultimately it's always 'ourselves' anyways - oneness and equality applied
Cool for sharing it and enjoy seeing what else opens up for you https://eqafe.com/p/contempt-life-review
In any case, I share this audio of contempt that I just recorded and it might assist to open up something... the adjustment being that this is not about holding contempt towards someone else, but yourself - and yes ultimately it's always 'ourselves' anyways - oneness and equality applied
Cool for sharing it and enjoy seeing what else opens up for you https://eqafe.com/p/contempt-life-review
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Great, thanks for all the input Marlen. I will investigate.
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A few nights ago I had the following Dream: Me and other people (strangers) are in a bus together. It was one of those long distance travel busses. I remember in the dream there was an issue with the luggage, it was packed in a way that is impossible, stacked in great volumes to the ceiling of the bus, making the space in the bus very crammed.
Then there was a change of environment and I am now in the balkans, ourdoors. I am standing on a large square-shaped stage along with a group of people who are part of 'my group' and we are all dressed in white. We are here to perform a dance together but I do not know the moves, we are doing this dance for the first time: I have no idea what to do next and I look at what the others are doing. I am always 'behind' and 'out of sync' with what some of the others are doing and I make mistakes.
Now that I read this back, it is interesting particularly with the dance performance: in the dream I have an awareness that we have not done this before, yet I expect to be in sync with the others - perhaps this is me 'trying to fit in' - instead of realising: I have to trust myself, find my own expression.
The bus in itself... I used to have dreams where I would be in 'trains' and there would be 'rails' and the train on the traintracks to me would represent my mind. Hence I see the bus as a 'more flexible' way to travel and not be so bound by a predetermined track. At the same time the luggage represents my past, as a 'complex mass' still hanging 'from the ceiling', taking quite a bit of space. When I look at myself and how I experience myself in my body and my mind, it is quite obvious that there is still a lot of chatter going on within me and a lot of 'inner movement', causing me to feel like I have to share my house (my body) with other personalities.
The word that I chose to work with when I read the chat withe Corona Virus, was the word Silence, as that would be the one thing that I long for the most - that I experience often to be 'missing'. When I look at myself and how I experience myself throughout my day, when I decide to sit down and be silent, I actually manage to sit in a silence in a way, yet there is (as if hidden behind a wall) in the background often a slight anxiety that is present - where I seem to fear my own silence - or I fear the thoughts that are lurking in the background - that I fear to address. I will use that to work with.
Any other/additional perspective would be welcome.
Then there was a change of environment and I am now in the balkans, ourdoors. I am standing on a large square-shaped stage along with a group of people who are part of 'my group' and we are all dressed in white. We are here to perform a dance together but I do not know the moves, we are doing this dance for the first time: I have no idea what to do next and I look at what the others are doing. I am always 'behind' and 'out of sync' with what some of the others are doing and I make mistakes.
Now that I read this back, it is interesting particularly with the dance performance: in the dream I have an awareness that we have not done this before, yet I expect to be in sync with the others - perhaps this is me 'trying to fit in' - instead of realising: I have to trust myself, find my own expression.
The bus in itself... I used to have dreams where I would be in 'trains' and there would be 'rails' and the train on the traintracks to me would represent my mind. Hence I see the bus as a 'more flexible' way to travel and not be so bound by a predetermined track. At the same time the luggage represents my past, as a 'complex mass' still hanging 'from the ceiling', taking quite a bit of space. When I look at myself and how I experience myself in my body and my mind, it is quite obvious that there is still a lot of chatter going on within me and a lot of 'inner movement', causing me to feel like I have to share my house (my body) with other personalities.
The word that I chose to work with when I read the chat withe Corona Virus, was the word Silence, as that would be the one thing that I long for the most - that I experience often to be 'missing'. When I look at myself and how I experience myself throughout my day, when I decide to sit down and be silent, I actually manage to sit in a silence in a way, yet there is (as if hidden behind a wall) in the background often a slight anxiety that is present - where I seem to fear my own silence - or I fear the thoughts that are lurking in the background - that I fear to address. I will use that to work with.
Any other/additional perspective would be welcome.
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How comfortable are you with traveling? Do you get worked up about luggage restrictions, fearing you lose your luggage when getting off the bus or a plane, or fear it getting lost?
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Ok thanks Leila.
Funny that you would ask this because a day or two after writing this post, I had another traveling dream:
I am about to take a plane at the airport and suddenly there is an issue with my planetickets but then my planetickets are found and everything is in order. Then as we are further preparing, suddenly there is an issue with my luggage because it went missing. They are no longer finding my suitcase at the airport, causing me to go astray and not take my planeflight and instead more or less go home again. After I lost my suitcase everything went into 'confusion' and I have no more real direction in the dream.
In real life when traveling, I do experience some levels of stress around traveling in itself. I do normally not fear losing my luggage so much as I get stressed around a few items such as my wallet and my planetickets. In real life when traveling, I actualy experience the suitcase as cumbersome, as something that slows me down and makes me depend on other people.
When I was in Panama for instance there was a moment where I was not comfortable when they were stacking the suitcases in the bus, because they were telling me to get on the bus and they would handle it, but I stayed outside of the bus until I could SEE that they had put my suitcase in the bus and not before.
Funny that you would ask this because a day or two after writing this post, I had another traveling dream:
I am about to take a plane at the airport and suddenly there is an issue with my planetickets but then my planetickets are found and everything is in order. Then as we are further preparing, suddenly there is an issue with my luggage because it went missing. They are no longer finding my suitcase at the airport, causing me to go astray and not take my planeflight and instead more or less go home again. After I lost my suitcase everything went into 'confusion' and I have no more real direction in the dream.
In real life when traveling, I do experience some levels of stress around traveling in itself. I do normally not fear losing my luggage so much as I get stressed around a few items such as my wallet and my planetickets. In real life when traveling, I actualy experience the suitcase as cumbersome, as something that slows me down and makes me depend on other people.
When I was in Panama for instance there was a moment where I was not comfortable when they were stacking the suitcases in the bus, because they were telling me to get on the bus and they would handle it, but I stayed outside of the bus until I could SEE that they had put my suitcase in the bus and not before.