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Christopher
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Starting self forgiveness

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currently i am taking english lessons, within this i found a thoughts and personalities i that have develop.
Limitations, resistances and justifications where i found that is very difficult to me, i want to walk this point.

I forgive myself for accepted and allowed myself to ressist learning english for i believe that is very difficult to me

I forgive myself for accepted and allowed myself to justify this difficulties within my personalities where i seek and found all reasons for don`t i move and learning.

I forgive myself for accepted and allowed myself to run away when i found that someting is dificult to me.

I forgive myself for accepted and allowed myself to avoid my participation in this group believe that i learn english is difficult to me.

I commit myself move and develop my habilities for support me and support others.

I commit myself to learn and apply the tools and share experiencies with others.
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I remember when i was child i always thought of breaking system, but not for the best way, i was a desire for destruction and revenge. I was know that human race was a responsible for creation that the individual participation it made it possible this. The consequece was that isloate me for people this included my family, i was don`t participate with they and i was develop have a resistance for work and money. This caused a conflict in my family and i was drink to much alcohol, smoking weed and cigarettes. Until i arive to desteni at a 2011 year, i remember that caused very conflict why i was don`t want to change but they kicked my ass and i was to wake up in certain sense and I have been able to give up to smoking and drink alcohol I have become someone more familar with people, even though I have not actively participated in the group.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to desire of destruction over earth because i was think that the best way of change the world.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself avoid to participate with other people for define me to knowledge and information and i believed that make me superior and more intelligent without i don`t realize and understand that this affecting my relation with other people.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to blame other people for the state for the world, without realize and understanding that i participate in the same world with others.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to resist to participate with others for the shame and guilt for my past.


I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to blame others due to malfuction of system, within this i don`t realize and understand that my participation in this system is equal to others.

I commit myself to correct old patterns that was define me.

I commit myself to stop old behaviors that affect mi relation with others people.

I commit myself to participate with others in building a new world.
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I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to adopt life patterns of other people for i think that is a normal form of life, without understand and realize that when i define those pattern normal i don`t question and calculate consequences of my participation in this, in a individual scale and global scale.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to avoid to adapt to a relationship/agreement for i think that is unnecesary for my life and avoid this for i know i have to change my life patterns.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to react when something says or support to me in correct my life patterns, for i was believe that my form of life is correct and i was don`t need to change.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to desire sex in moment that presents a posibility of stablish a agreement or relationship, for i was believe that was a normal, without undestand that is affect my relationship with myself and other womans.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to desire for being atractive for womens, for atract her atention, without realize and understand that my starting point is obtain sex atention.

i forgive myself to accepting and allowing myself to dont realize and understand that desire for sex or obtain womans sex atention, afect my relationship with myself where i activate my personalities where i desire activate the atraction in womens and dont realize and understand that this mecanic is altering my relation with my partner and my relationship with womans.

I commit myself to stop any mind mechanism that is altering my relationship with myself and my partner.

I commit myself to correct my mind patterns that will afect my relationship with my partner and myself.

I commit myself to don`t compare me with other mens in my enviorment for develop my relationship with myself and correct my life style for being a living example.
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Hi Christopher, great for starting to write your self forgiveness and sharing it here.

I recommend checking out the series What is Sex (Qué es el Sexo) y Relationship Success Suport (Apoyo para Relaciones Exitosas) from Eqafe because it will assist you a lot to know how to work with these desires and experiences in relation to sex and understand then what a relationship and the difference of an agreement is.

Thanks for sharing
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Within this process I have had too many negative lapses, just the fact that the dimensions are participating in the physical has made my process more difficult than usual since my process consists in improving the physical and dimensional relationships. As there has been abuse in my personal process I realized that I have to do self-forgiveness from the perspective of not reacting to others and learning to forgive others, as this takes place within a mental plane I could not describe this feeling accompanied with great physical pain.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to react others with hate, anger when i see that one or more people hurt me or they made fun of me.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to act impulsively when being mocked or others molesting me.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself dont understand and realize that act impusively or react others when others mocked of me or hurt me is unnecesary for my relationship with myself because i charge my desire for revenge or hate others.

I commit myself to forgive others and improve my relationships with others.

I commit myself to do not do to others, what I do not like to do with me.
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Marlen wrote: 13 Jun 2019, 18:54 Hi Christopher, great for starting to write your self forgiveness and sharing it here.

I recommend checking out the series What is Sex (Qué es el Sexo) y Relationship Success Suport (Apoyo para Relaciones Exitosas) from Eqafe because it will assist you a lot to know how to work with these desires and experiences in relation to sex and understand then what a relationship and the difference of an agreement is.

Thanks for sharing

Thanks Marlen, in this case is a girl with a difficult past, so, i am correting my relationship with myself in the perspective of support her and correct some personalities that be harmful, i developed a impulsive character that in many cases can be destructive in my relation with others, is a part of my process
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I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to start my process of writing since starting point of want a reward for my actions and writings.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to writing of since starting point of showing to others my writings

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself dont realize and understand that write and participate here is a point of support and correct myself for an individual transformation and sharing experiences.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to react when someone interrupt me while i am writing, concentrated or busy in my activities.

I commit myself write since starting point of develop self consciousness, correct patterns of thinking, believes and behaviors.
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I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to leave my partner in moments when activates my doubts, fears and insecurities, without understand that this cycles of doubts, fears and insecurities are cycles of my past repeating in my present.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to react with frustration, desire to leave my partner when she has fears, doubts and distrust for me, without understanding and realize her past and her old relationships.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to dependency of feelings and emotions and believe that emotions and feelings are the base of relationsips.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to leave my partner in the moment of i see that her developed defensive personalities.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to define myself with fears, doubts, insecurities

I commit myself to dont participate in the cycles of insecurities, fears and doubts.

I commit myself to improve myself to give a better relationship to my partner in a dependent way of her fears, distrusts, doubts or fears of her past.

I commit myself to hear my partner and develop comunication for support her.

I commit myself to take responsibility for myself breath by breath for develop self consciousness and improve myself for a better future.

I commit myself to let go the patterns and behaviors of my past and keeping a constancy and consistency in my process of change.

I commit myself to develop tolerancy and patience in all my relationships.
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I realize that pornography and paraphilias are utilized for many people for increase their sexual pleasure, within my participation in this i realized that is a very heavy adiction that destroy the real sexual expression.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to watch pornography for activate sexual reactions and feelings.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to relate sex and self pleasure.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to depend on images, videos to believe that is a only form to activate my sexual reactions and feelings.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to desire of self pleasure in moment of develop sexuality with myself or partner.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to desire for watch porn for belief that is a way for a get activate my sexual reactions and impulses.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to depend on objects, paraphilias and fantasies in the moment of i develop my sexuality and belief that is a correct form of obtain pleasure.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myseld to dont realize and understant that sexuality is a form of connecting to my physical body and my partner.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to copy sexual behaviors of pornography in my real life for i believed that is a real form of develop sexuality.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to participate on my sexual impulses for i think is a correct form of develop sex.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to desire for obtain more pleasure using external factors that separate myself in develop sexuality.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to read sexual fantasies, histories from other people to activate my sexual impulses.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to depend to external factors for activate sexual impulses.

I commit myself to leave of participate in sexual impulses for develop physical sex expression, and develop conection with my partner.

I commit myself to correct the meaning of sex in my life.
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I am in a context very strong for facing, when i am feel love or atraction for a woman but for she ignoring me, reject me and acting with cruelity when she knowing my feelings, this situation is very common in the school and the group of friends when i was adolescent, that experience consequences how frustration, self judgment, low self steem and within this i generated many personalities for attempt atract atention of others or simply isolated me of others.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to react with self judgment when a woman when i feel atracted ingoring me or reject me.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to feel pain, depression and desire of self destruction when i have a bad experiences with a womans.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to react with depression, frustration when the woman that i like have another partner.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to react with hate, anger when i feel attracted to a woman or i am in love for a woman but she ignoring me, reject me, without knowing and understand react was unnecesary why i dont consider what its best for all in situation and in place of develop self questioning of my form of thinking, i dont saw my own reactions and i was dont capable of measure consequences of my thoughts and emotions for another individual.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to desire of atract atention when i realized that i have difficults to conecting with a other people and i believe that was necesary for i felt better and accepted with others.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to desconsider my enviorment in moments that i was depressed and frustrated and within this consider to suicide for the bad experiences of my past.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to victimize myself for the bad experiences of my past.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to use my pride when others support me in trascend the bad experiences of my past because i felt was unnecesary for me and i thinked that i am perfect how i am.

I commit myself to develop self steem, self love and consider my enviorment and all.

I commit myself to focus in my process of self change for grow.

I commit myself to write daily for develop self consciousness and facing my past.

I commit myself to support myself in the work, studying and activities in my house and dont participate in the mind cycles of abuse.

I commit myself to support myself and develop self love for support other people in the future.
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