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Re: Marleys Journey To Life

Postby Marley Dawkins » 21 Jul 2019, 22:25

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There will be no religious prophet saviours, there will be no superheroes to save the day, there will be no aliens/gods that will fix things, no super smart scientists to calculate us out of calamity. There is only us and Equal Money.



As discussions surrounding basic income increase globally, as the unified screams of the suffering of life in this world become louder and louder, the discussions surrounding equality will only continue to rise.



Yet what is the greatest force that supressess, dampens and resists the building of a world that is best for all life? The minds of humans, the pre-programmed patterns of fear and selfishness.



Because what you may already have noticed when looking at global politics right now in July 2019, is that as the need for basic income grows, the ego of many humans will try all they can to defend capitalism, to resist and avoid the obvious with ideas like -



"basic income would never work, it's not feasible", "basic income would cost too much", "it's like a form of social communism that has failed before", "basic income would make people lazy".



The list of resistances the human ego can produce against equality is seemingly innumerable in purporsley blinding ourselves to reality - the ego always wants a biased complex solution, and because basic income is so unbiased and simple, it is thus attacked by the ego.



The reality is though, that no matter how you personally feel about basic income and equal money, your personal feeling is irrelevant at this point, as the consequences of this capitalist money system become more extensive, the need for a global financial reset that looks after our planet supersedes any opinionated, self-interested feelings we have.





The biggest hurdle still seems to be the very vision the reality of a world unified through equality, being defined and viewed as some kind of impossible myth.



All money systems that have ever existed have all been based on a mythological idea, an illusionary concept, which was made real through united acceptance just like our current money system.



Basic income is in reality the first step towards an Equal Money System, a global equalisation of all resources, a world that has not been seen before, a world where everyone in this world lives as a God, so that we can live as the race of Gods we should be.



As the need for basic income intensifies in every moment, what is the crucial component in getting this done? It is me, it is you reading this, it is all of us together now, the money system is us, so it will never change if we do not change our ravenous human nature to become a new form of nature, as life as who we really are, so let's remove the barriers that hold us back from living Equal money.



I have been a non-believer of Equal Money before, so I know these statements will assist -



I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to deny the need for a new monetary system that looks after all life equally, through existing as and feeding into my own pre-programmed ideas of life in separation as the ego, where I live as a capitalist being, selfish and all-consuming, where I take what I need for me and as long as i can keep doing that I do not care about a new money system.



I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to hope that some aliens or prophetic figures will come and save humanity, when in reality only an equal money system implemented individually and in unity by the group of humanity will actually save this world from destruction and create a world of harmony.



I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to believe, that creating a new money system that supports all life would be such an impossible task, due to seeing how much needs to be fixed, and seeing myself as so small in comparison to the giant money system.



I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to comparing myself to the money system, defining myself as too small to make any impact, without realising the reality that I am one cell in this world system as we all are, meaning there is no such thing as a superior cell, we are all cells of one body, meaning that we are all equal to the greatness of the whole.



I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to refuse to see that this money system of capitalism is based on an illusionary idea, an idea of fighting to survive, fighting to get to heaven, made real through our unified acceptance - Equal Money is just another illusionary idea where we change the value system to honour all life. Once upon a time Capitalism was an illusion in someones head, which became the accepted illusion in everyone's head, we need a new illusion to live by based on the foundation of what is best for all life.



I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to define myself as happy as long as me and my family have money, without even realising that all of humanity is our family and so when even one person in this world has no money, then our happiness can never be authentic.



I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to believe that basic income would cost too much to implement, without realising that this belief is based on the fear of not having enough for things that fund our selfishness - if we look at the amounts of money spent on War, Sex and pointless poorly made products every year, which buys us what? The God Ego energy, then how can we actually argue against spending money on something where we are buying the actual real tangible physical security for all life?



I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to define basic income through the eyes of a capitalist always fearing running out of resources, when in reality this planet creates more then enough for all life to be equally supported, basic income merely facilitates this.



I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself for not fearing spending too much money when it funds my unconscious desires, when it gets me what i want to make me feel good - but when it funds the support of all life, as the ego I start bringing choice, doubt, resistance as fear into play as I know in self-honesty that funding a world that's best for all life will threaten the funding of entertaining my self-interested desires.



I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself for compare basic income to other past money systems like socialism or communism, andy sort of isms, to create a schism, trying to create some sort of definition as the human ego always wants to do.



I forgive myself that I have not accepted and allowed myself to realise that a system where all life is provided the best to be the best version of themselves, has never been truly seen before on a global scale, and thus one cannot compare any previous money system to equal money, because we have never seen a world where all beings are equally the elite.





I forgive myself that I have not accepted and allowed myself to realise that any monetary system that leaves one person in poverty and one person in extreme wealth, cannot be compared to an Equal Money system, because an Equal Money System has no concept of class, no concept of more for some, as all are considered and treated with the respect of royalty as life.



I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to deceive myself into believing that when i get free money I will be lazy, which again is a defence mechanism of a capitalist mind - when in reality when I have money I work harder, I am more productive as my self-worth increases so to does my efforts - In self-honesty it is the system that we live in now that makes people lethargic and lazy, as my self-worth is not high as my labour is cheap with no value, as I sleepwalk towards the next paycheck to maintain my sad lazy zombie existence as a capitalist.



I forgive myself that I have accepted anc allowed myself to define basic income as being too simple to be effective, when in reality it is the expectation and belief that a complex solution is needed which is where the ego fucks us - the ego purposely pushes us to focus on complexity in order to overwhelm ourselves and thus make sure that we never come to an effective solution that's best for all through tangling ourselves up in our "intelligent complex ideas".



I forgive myself that I have not accepted and allowed myself to realise that no matter your perspective is about basic income, it is irrelevant as the reality of life on Earth in 2019 is showing that that basic income is a clear necessity to continue the existence of our species.



I forgive myself that I have failed to see that more people have been killed in war, more women/children raped and more people have starved to death in the last 100 years alone in comparison to all of human history - all as a result of the accumulating spitefulness of humanity on an individual basis that resonates through into the money system - without basic income leading into equal money there is only one outcome - extinction.



I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to fail to realise that basinc income leading into an equal money system is not the demand of an individual or small group, it is the demand of this planet itself and it is the last chance we have to truly please our mother.



I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not realise that changing policies in the current money system, are just a shift in control and wealth, which makes no difference in how the world functions, because only a total new economic system will change the experience for all life.



I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not see that democracy as it exists currently, is a form of Demon-Cazy, where we are all legally giving power to a few people, hoping we can join the few with our demonic selfishness to "beat the competition". It is a dictatorship where all the cells/citizens of the body are feeding the mind/elite, while being ignored.



I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not realise that in all democratic elections, the citizen does not really have a say, as the political process is often a selection, and also only policy changes are proposed, which end up making no difference to the system as a whole.





I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not realise that an Equal Money System is the implementation of a completely new value system where money is equal to life. Each child born, every human has equal value from birth till death, where each individual has equal democratic participation voting on every policy, so that we have a real government made up of the will of the people.



I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to equate liberty to freedom from spending money, where the value of money is more than life, where it becomes like an exclusive money club, protecting ownership not life.



I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not realise that ownership and wealth are the result of a fearful elite, forcing poverty upon others in self-interest and with no consequences from God, no physically noticeable Karmic effects, the choice to abuse is easily made.



I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not see that producing poverty through wealth is tyrannical.



I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to miss that behind a capitalist system i stand as the image and likeness of a demonic destroyer taking from all for self-gratification, whereas behind an equal money system is the image and likeness of God looking after all its children.



I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to claim that I have worked so hard to get my money, without even considering how many people I have hurt to get what I wanted, stepping on people like ants as i climb the ladder of wealth, as my growing tyrant mind justifies how glorious my success is, when in reality this glory is has a very gory basis.



I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not realise that what I pursue defines who I am, and if I just strive for wealth as the root of all evil, I accept my nature to be evil - then I will justify why I am wealthy as if it is my "free choice", while those in poverty made the "wrong choice" all the while refusing to see that I'm in a system that deliberately keeps resources limited so that a gigantic slave population grew so the wealthy can be in heaven abusing the slaves as if it is a god given right.



I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not realise that a system of wealth and property rights is a system of control and protectionism, where only the few are protected against all others who do not have equal rights.



I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to use my dreams of wealth and success to develop into the control that decides the fate of the many through protecting the free choice opportunity of the few, brainwashing the many poor into believing they maye join my heavenly club of wealth - without realising that I have created a dream for me, but a nightmare for others outside my wealthy club, completely missing that equal money is a shared dream without any nightmare side effects.



I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not realise that when an equal money system is in place, me as the wealthy will no longer have slaves, nobody to clean up after me, which will force me to realise that I as the wealthy, the power I received I had was only made real through the participation of the slaves, the slaves that I abused.



I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not realise that suffering on our planet will only end when we have a completely new system of equality, and that those few living in super luxury, only those not suffering will attempt to oppose the end of suffering.



I commit myself to not allowing myself to resist basic income and an equal money system, so as and when I see my mind having thoughts doubting, fearing, resisting equal money, I stop and breathe, I realize that these thoughts exist in separation from me and only enforce the limitation of my preprogramming and thus the status quo of this capitalist money system, so I breathe, and continue to breathe until there is no more thoughts coming up that resist an equal money system.



I commit myself to bring awareness that only a total new system considering all life equally will solve the problems of the world.



I commit myself to show that the acceptance of wealth and success with property ownership is in fact the acceptance of responsibility for the suffering and starvation of others.



I commit myself to a completely new value system that only has one resource that is valued above all else - life.



I commit myself to end the tyranny of ownership and wealth for the few, instead installing the benevolence of giving to all life equally, where we all receive our fair share, where all life are wealthy owners as equal gods.



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Re: Marleys Journey To Life

Postby Marley Dawkins » 28 Jul 2019, 21:37

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Do you notice in life how often we humans speak words, but our intentions behind the words we speak do not match up? This in turn can make it very difficult to build a solid foundation of trust with a person, as lying to each other and ourselves has run rampant among humanity globally.



It's like a complex network of lies that bubble beneath the surface inside all humans.



Hidden agendas are crippling ourselves, cripping our relationships with each other and crippling our world as a whole. We must take on and remove all hidden agendas from our world.



Saying I love you for example is a favorite where we humans show how conflicting our intentions are to the words we speak.



Also swear words, which came up in discussion with a friend this past week, where I pointed out that all words are equal as words including swear words.



If I say fuck you, without emotion, but then I shout get away from me! emotionally - the emotional get away from me is more offensive because of the spiteful emotional energy im using behind the words.



This past week I have been looking at the health dangers of 5G and it is fascinating that while so much research proves the health dangers with 5G, the major phone companies are still touting 5G as an amazing advancement that this going to improve everyone's lives in terms of telecommunications/WIFI.



Very Insidious machinations behind a face of advancement, Its like Hollywood - sold a s a dream to the public but is a nightmare in reality. It's like catching your partner cheating on you, but you just carry on with the relationship anyway, telling everyone that everything is fine, meanwhile what lies beneath is the knowledge that this person's intentions are toxic to themselves, to you and to the stability of your relationship, so you lie and wait for your opportunity to strike the person back with your own hidden agenda.



Just like 5G we show everyone a face of goodness and improvement, while in reality what lies beneath, the real intentions are harmful to life.



Lets stop this game of hidden agendas -



I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to use a face of advancement to hide my real intentions that lie beneath, exactly the same as technology like 5G.



I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to state that things are great even when i know they are not.



I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to be dishonest with others about my intentions.



I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to try to justify hidden intentions in my mind, because of seeing how others have used hidden intentions against me and thus thinking it is only fair for me to use hidden intentions to others.



I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to believe that I must use my hidden intentions on someone before they can use their hidden intentions on me, which only perpetuates a world of secrecy in self-interest, where we all look away in the face of reality.



I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to be dishonest with myself by convincing myself that the deception I am allowing is ok, even when I know in self-honesty it is not.





I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to refuse to see that the inability to live as one face we humans have, is the reason so many suffer in this world - because we believe that living as a false image projected onto reality to purposely blind ourselves from the real truth is acceptable.



I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to ignore what is real in favour of illusion, so I don't have to face the real pain here - like a drug addict that will do anything to stay in their drug fuelled illusion, avoiding facing the pain of what is behind the addiction and stopping it.



I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to refuse to see that as long as I have hidden agendas in anything I do, then I am accepting a world of hidden agendas that we have now to continue, which is an unacceptable crime to life.



I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to get an energetic high from deceiving people with my hidden agendas, where I feel like a cool secret agent always walking on a knife edge to keep my alias intact.



I forgive myself that I have not accepted and allowed myself to realise that whenever I hide my true intentions, I am essentially saying that only my self-interest matters, that I have a right to know things ahead of someone else, as if i am god treating others as slaves not worthy of eating from the tree knowledge.



I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to define myself through the fake faces I show others, when in reality all these faces exist in separation from physical reality as the pre-programmed mind and thus are not real - when I live as my body here as this breath, I only have one face as equality and oneness.



I forgive myself that I have not accepted and allowed myself to see in every breath that as long as Starvation, Rape and War exist in our world, this proves that our lives are not fine and that are still hidden intentions and fake faces that must be removed from our world trying to hide the abuse occurring.



I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not see that the body is the creator and energy provider of the mind, but as long as the mind believes it is more then the physical body with these false intentions then the mess of this world will not be corrected.



I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to refuse to see that the very nature of a hidden agenda, is only hidden because I know it is unacceptable even though it gives me the self-interest energy I want, so rather then face it, I keep it hidden and allow it to pull the strings behind the scenes in my mind, while I present a totally different image to the person.



I commit myself to not allowing myself to participate in any forms of hidden agendas, so as and when I see my mind having thoughts come up around hiding my intentions from someone I stop and breathe I realise that these thoughts of having hidden agendas are unacceptable as they will only continue a world of deception, so I breathe and continue to do so until there is no more hidden intentions that exist here.



I commit myself to exposing all hidden agendas that exist in this world, as this world is equal to me as life and so it is my responsibility to existence, to make sure that all hidden agendas are ended so we can have a world of clear intentions that take care of life unconditionally.



I commit myself to equalising my words to my intentions in all areas of my life.



I commit myself to living the realisation that the only agenda that is valid in life is living solutions that create a world a that supports all life.



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Re: Marleys Journey To Life

Postby Marley Dawkins » 04 Aug 2019, 22:01

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You know that experience of immense offence? When its really deep and personal, where you take offence to somebody in your life so much that you take action to remove this person from your life, by stopping all forms of interaction with them - they essentially become dead to you, 6ft deep as far down in your mind as you can.



Likely you will have offended the other person immensely as well, then all that remains is these spiteful thoughts, words and actions towards each other as you both increasingly agree to stop interacting.



I have found in life, that sometimes these situations are valid, where someone has outright abused you, perhaps many times and you have to stop all forms of interaction with them as it becomes clear that its generally best for all.



Yet other times when you look closely in your life in self-honesty, you will notice there will be interactions where you have ended up blocking someone, who in reality didn't do anything wrong apart from challenging your ego, questioning your idea of yourself.



The ego doesn't like to be questioned, it demands that everyone respects it, or it will defend itself attacking you and you will quickly become dead to that person.



I have done plenty of blocking people who were a detrimental effect to my life, this was proveable as being best for all. But recently I had one that fell into the later, where my ego and this other person's ego was offended so much that we both decided to block each other, effectively becoming dead to each other.



It was really an accumulation of conversations and interactions, where I reacted as an emotion of annoyance, feeling like i'm not being listened to, and the other person felt the same. Our words and tones with each other became more and more venomous, where eventually it was nothing but consistent criticism for each other that we had.



I know that If i had either not reacted, or diffused my reactions much earlier, then this situation could have been avoided.



It is always when two people stand as ego, they both get offended, both will not back down, when in those moments we have to take self-responsibility to realise what is happening, that the conversation is becoming toxic, to breathe be stable and let the point go. As soon as one person lets go of their offence, then the debate/conflict is over which is best for all.



When there is a common sense blocking, then it still gives the doorway of opportunity to unblock the person in later years if they face themselves in their isolation from you, changing their abusive behaviour.



Meanwhile the "You are Dead to me" blocking that the ego does is different and is a permanent burying of the person in your mind which does not assist anybody.



So look over those people you have blocked out of your life through the years, in self-honesty when i look now, I know the ones that were valid and the ones that were not. I suggest we all go back over our blockings to clarify exactly which ones were valid and which ones were not.



Moving forward I make sure that I stop all forms of pre-programmed blocking of people based on my ego being offended - the dead must be revived eventually, because a world of death does not help anyone, we must create a world of life.



Walk with me to let go of past deaths and avoid future ones -



I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to be personally offended as the ego by someone, and to then defend my stance as the ego by defining the person as now being "Dead to me". I see how this is detrimental because all this creates is a unnecessarily burnt bridges, when in reality if I had not reacted in emotion to the person, then our conflict and my subsequent idea of the person being now dead to me would have been avoided.



I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to fear that if i back down from a debate/conflict, then I am showing weakness which my ego does not like because I define myself as strong as the ego, so rather then backing down my ego will defend itself and define the person as dead to me.



I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to define myself as being strong, when in reality true strength has nothing to do with fighting with others to listen, real strength is to take self-responsibility to diffuse conflicts, not feed into them.



I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to refuse to put myself in the shoes of someone else once I have allowed my ego to be offended by the person.



I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to resist that which opposes what's best for all life, instead of realising that what i resists persists, thus i must stand equal to, work with and direct to what's best, fighting someone else's ego with my own never produces beneficial outcomes.



I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to hold onto memories of when I was living as a criminal in my teenage years, where in that life it is important to quickly define someone as dead to you for the smallest indiscretion.



I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to define someone as dead who will not listen to something i passionately suggest to them.



I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to believe that my word means so much and so should be respected and listened to straight away.



I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to refuse to see that this belief, confirms that I am confused about how all our minds work as the ego, the reality is that we all realise ourselves in our own time, it is not according to anyone else's timeline, only our own.



I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to stand as the point of God as Money as the ego when I define someone as dead to me, where I am casting them out of heaven, out of money with no hope of ever re-entering heaven/money, which is a completely unnecessary stance and sentence to give someone and is what keeps the horrors in this world being allowed.



I forgive myself for not accepting and allowing myself to realise that whenever I have a blaming experience towards anyone else for how I experience myself, then it shows that I am living in separation from physical reality as the pre-programmed ego which is not acceptable.





I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to get annoyed and then define someone as dead to me, because I am not getting what i want in self-interest, which is exactly what keeps the world in place as it is, all getting annoyed with each other when our selfish desires are not getting appeased.



I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to deceive others, through masking what i want as being good for the person whether that is physically true or not.



I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed my perspectives being forced and ignored as a reason to be offended, when if I hadn't been as forceful in the first place then that may have had a better impact - planting seeds gently with care, taking your time to grow the seeds, always produces a better crop then a forced and rushed crop.



I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not always notice the difference between when i have blocked someone for a common sense reason that benefits all, or when it is because my ego was offended, when in reality when I live as this breath in self-honesty, I can always see clearly if I am blocking someone from a clear best for all starting point or not.



I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to as the pre-programmed mind miss that because i focus on living what's best for all life, and i see humanities pre-programming as promulgating a world of death - I sometimes will judge someone as already being dead when they are not willing to live what's best for all life right now, when I am also just as equally dead through this behaviour if that is the case, because although I like to face and remove my brainwashing patterns, there are many I still require to sort out just like everyone else in this world, thus I have no authority to speak above anyone else.



I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to get emotional and angry when someone i care about is hurting themselves and not listening to me - I realise that this emotional anger only feeds into friction and no beneficial solution with the person.



I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to refuse to see that the world is the way it is, because of treating some people as more alive then others and defining so many as being dead to our society, and so we turn a blind eye to the abuse in the world.



I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to believe it is "Just the way it is" that some people will always be "dead to us", when this is unacceptable as this is a life sentence that nobody should impose on anyone - so this world of the dead must be turned to a world of life, where all beings are equally as alive to us all.



I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to judge my father as being dead to me because he offended my ego by not being there for me growing up.



I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to judge past lovers as being dead to me because of allowing my ego to be offended by them when they didn't listen to me, when I didn't get the basis of the relationship and/or sex the way i wanted it.



I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to judge past friends and work colleagues as being dead to me, because they offended my ego by going behind my back to talk about me in a derogatory way.



I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to believe I can ignore someone i define as dead to me, when in reality they are not dead physically, they still exist as a part of this one world we all share, and thus are a part of me, so must have the same acknowledgement and respect as life as I myself and anyone else would want.





I commit myself to not allowing myself to define anyone as being "dead to me" I realise that this is a definition derived from the ego in complete separation, which is totally different to a common sense blocking of someone to benefit everyone - so as and when I see thoughts coming up about someone being "dead to me" I stop and breathe, I do not allow myself to participate with these thoughts, as in doing so would only continue my own enslavement as this separation, so I continue to breathe until there is no more thoughts that come up.



I commit myself to living the realisation that when someone offends my ego, that is actually a support for me to let go of my own bullshit programming,



I commit myself to living the realisation that blocking someone from my life is only beneficial to all life when there is actual continual verbal and physical abuse occurring from a person's behaviour - yet this blocking still allows the door of interaction to be possibly reopened oneday if people really change for the better, this "you are dead to me" from the ego is so unnecessarily permanent.



I commit myself to creating a world where nobody is dead to anybody, where all life is acknowledged, honoured and respected as life in equality and oneness.



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Re: Marleys Journey To Life

Postby Marley Dawkins » 11 Aug 2019, 21:24

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Where do you call home? Maybe you live with many family members in a house, or maybe you live with friends, or maybe you live on your own like me.



Regardless of your daily living situation, it is interesting how the mind over time begins to define itself through who we live with and the house we live in - the ego creates tentacles of ownership around the property, becomes my "home sweet home" "my kingdom".



I have seen this recently come up, for myself where due to unforeseen circumstances I am having to move house as it's what's best for all in the situation.



Fascinating how my mind has been fearing this ever since it became clear, thoughts coming up like - "this is my home, i don't want to leave", "what if i don't like my next place as much?" "This place feels like a part of me now".



So the house I live in, as I write this I have lived here for a few years now on my own, and what this recent need to move has highlighted, is the reactions of paranoid fear, an obsessed attachment around losing this house - I hadn't really realised how much my mind has become attached to this place before.



I see how my mind is scared to lose this house, fearing letting it go, how I have defined myself as this house as the ego. This delusionary idea that I wont be as happy in someway, that a piece of me will be missing.



My current house very much has a "batcave" vibe about it, a "hidden castle" kind of thing, which I see is where my mind is building loads of connections of value in separation from physical reality.



Yet what has occured to me in the past day or so, as I started breathing, slowing down, introspecting on this situation, being honest with myself and applying common sense - i have started realising that who and what I am as life, is not defined through anything outside of myself.



Our pre-programmed minds are designed to become attached, addicted to anything that makes us feel good, the energy highs - sex, money, drugs, holidays, clothes, cars and houses do tend to be some of the most common ones.



I have realised that in reality I am equal to all houses existent on this planet, Earth is my home, meaning everywhere and anywhere is my home - thus in common sense any house of bricks that provides me a roof over my head and a life of dignity, is somewhere I can create as a new home for day to living.



I have many friends around the world who also recently have had to face these same points, what has emerged from this is an understanding that in life, we all must be clear around the point of housing -

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to fear moving from my house, I realise this fear is deriving from an idea where I have been defining this house as a part of who I am as the ego in separation of myself.



I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to claim ownership in my mind of a property that does not actually belong to me, I say this as I realise that all properties, whether my mind claims "ownership" or not, will be here in this world long after I am gone supporting a different being and thus no house in this world is truly owned by any human - every house is owned by mother earth, by this planet, this reality.



I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to refuse to see that the thought "this is my home" can be a statement given to any house in this world that will support me to live with everything I need to succeed, thus this thought makes no sense to allow.



I forgive myself that I have not allowed and accepted myself to realise that the statement "this is my home" is of the ego, where man as the capitalist money machine claims ownership to everything and all through money, whereas the statement - this is where i am being supported to live currently, it is adequate for my needs, is of self-honesty and common sense which is best for all.



I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to fear that I might not like my next house as much as the one I am in now, I realise this is my ego just trying to rationalise, trying to defend itself, trying to convince me that my happiness is determined by staying in my current house, when I see how my happiness in self-honesty is not determined by any specific house, I can create enjoyment living in any house that meets my needs.





I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to define myself through the house I live in currently, this definition i see is derived from an idea of myself as the ego being this lone wolf, secret agent super hero in his batcave and i see how I have allowed the actual design of the house itself to feed into this.



I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to define myself as this lone wolf, secret agent superhero where I apparently always "need" a "hidden cave" type of house, when in reality this idea of myself is not real, it exists in separation from who I am really am as life in equality and oneness.



I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to react to the actual design of my current house, as being "perfect" to strengthen this idea of myself as it is difficult to find and has a hidden castle appearance to it.



I forgive myself that I have not accepted and allowed myself to realise that the reaction of fear about moving is from this idea that my current house feeds into my "top secret" super activities and that these activities could be compromised in a new house.



I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to experience myself as the "king in his castle" at my current house, due to its design being that of a castle - my own little hidden kingdom my ego says - where I am master to lord over the lands and feeling that the inner walls of my castle are a secret hidden court cut off from the laws of reality, the same way my mind tries to create secret hidden kingdoms to get away with abuse.



I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to refuse to see that in light of this hidden kingdom idea of my property - it is clearly actually of benefit to all life, that I do move to somewhere else to support myself to let go of this hidden kingdom, secret king/kingdom idea of myself and the house I live in currently.



I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to define the idea of moving as being troublesome, due to the physical time and effort it takes - when in reality Rome wasn't built in a day and anything of value in this world requires time and effort to garner the best results.



I forgive myself that I have not accepted and allowed myself to realise in every breath, that home should be where I create heaven on Earth through living what's best for all, not where I feed into mind possessions where only hell on earth can be created.



I forgive myself that I have not accepted and allowed myself to initially see that going anywhere my mind fears, always actually is a support to become comfortable out of my comfort zone, so that the more I do this through the years of walking my journey to life, eventually I will have "no zones" of fear left within me.





I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to justify living on my own because of keeping secrets in work and life, and to justify keeping secrets because I live on my own - when in fact outside of my work parameters of non disclosure, confidential classifications etc, there should be no other part of my life where secrecy and forced isolation of myself should occur.



I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to desire to be the silent king living in his hidden castle.



I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to be "in love" with this house, and I see in self-honesty how this "love" is the systems idea of love as an obsession, an unhealthy belief that I need this house, because it lets me feed into my desires - which is not actually real love, as real love does not obsess, it supports, real love is not energy for desires, it is physical caring, intimacy and tenderness.



I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to become addicted to my house, attached to the energy for my ego I derive from living in this house - I realise that every addiction must come to an end no matter how long it is delayed, because it is based on energy and energy is finite, cannot sustain itself indefinitely without the physical, it is the physical that supersedes energy, not the other way around.



I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to fear having more neighbours as opposed to having not many like i do now, I see how this is again deriving from this lone wolf idea of myself which is not valid to exist, as it only limits my interaction with others and so having more neighbours is a support for me right now.



I forgive myself that I have not accepted and allowed myself to realise in every breath that I am equal to all houses in this world - so I am responsible to be living in any dignified house of bricks in this world, the same way I am equally responsible in creating a stable house of bricks within and as myself.





I commit myself to not allowing myself to fear moving from the house I live in, I realise that this house is just that, a house I live in, it is not my ownership therefore it makes no sense to limits myself through fearing moving - so as and when I see my mind having thoughts based in fear of moving, I stop and breathe, I do not allow my mind to participate as doing so will only limit and enslave me as this fear and idea of myself as the ego which is not acceptable.



I commit myself to living the realisation that all houses in this world are equal as houses and so in reality any house that enables me to live in dignity is all i require, the attachment my mind creates to certain parts of this current property are not real as they feed into the idea that who I am is defined through one property in this whole world, which is separation.



I commit myself to not allowing myself to define myself or any house as being "a secret agent" or a "great house for secrecy" I realise that all secrecy is where abuse is perpetrated, when walking in full view, walking as a clear face with no secrets that abuse is always best for all in this world, thus I stop feeding into secrecy within my life and living.



I commit myself to building a house of worth as myself, a house of rocks, not a house of shifting sand, brick by brick no matter how much time and effort is required.



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Re: Marleys Journey To Life

Postby Marley Dawkins » 18 Aug 2019, 22:17

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How many times have you been in a situation where your body is clearly warning you of something, but instead of listening to and heeding the warning your body gives, you just keep going along with entertaining thoughts instead, focusing on what you want - ignoring the warnings until your body eventually hits you back as revenge in a way for not listening in the first place.



This is common for instance in martial arts gyms around the world, you will always see someone in the gym, who has a bad injury, but is training really hard anyway and you know that at some point they are going to face the consequence of a long term injury if they don't start slowing down, listening to the body and letting the little issue heal before it accumulates into a big issue.



The body will be start with little warnings, then escalating where it may get to a point where it will be too late for you to intervene and heed the warnings before consequence comes crashing down on you - in the gym it could be varying sharp pains in your injured locations, these sharp pains are the body trying to tell you to slow down and give me time to heal before putting more pressure on me.



But the ego of the fighter keeps thinking - "nah i'm good i can go all out, yeah i've got a little knock, but its nothing im a tough dude". As much as ignoring physical pain can be a verification to many of how tough someone is, training hard through injuries for instance, constantly telling yourself your ok, does create in fact create a tough character for a fight - however in reality it is this tough guy character as the ego which also can completely fuck you before you know it in your training/fights. If you listen to the body and relax immediately when a problem comes up, then maybe you will only be injured for a few months, if you don't as this "i'm so tough" idea you could find yourself out of any training for a year or worse.



It always seems like a "good idea" to "battle on" in our minds until the consequence of not listening to the body in the first place plays out and you realise that it was never a good idea in the first place, but realising that after the fact means nothing unless you learn from it and take action to stop a repetition of it. This isn't exclusive to fighters though, in self-honesty we all do this ignoring the needs of the physical in so many areas of our life, which is reflected in the world we see where so much abuse is ignored.



I had a stark reminder of this a few days ago, where I wasn't looking after my body correctly, "pushing on" in my self-interest and suffering the consequence of throwing up all over myself.



I realise I have had this pattern for a long time of ignoring pain, ignoring the bodies feedback as the ego, ignoring my bodies warnings - THINKING I can push through my physical limits, but in reality I cannot and only cause unnecessary damage to myself when I do.



I have been so slow to learn this point in my life, this pattern has to stop so I can live what's best for all life -



I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to have a fight with and ignore my bodies warnings as the ego in certain scenarios, where I am pushing the physical to its limits causing damage to myself instead of listening to and respecting my bodies warnings of overexertion.



I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to define myself as and believe that I am so tough that I can ignore my bodies warnings, as if my body is wrong and my ego that doesn't want to admit defeat is always right - when in reality every time the physical shows me through consequence that it supersedes the ego.



I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to desire the acknowledgement of others that I can push through my limits, which speaks to an attention seeking issue where I will always think I am justified in this bravado, because im having a lovely innocent "good time" with my friends which is unacceptable.



I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to create and feed into a polarity friction that it is "good" to be tough enough to ignore what my body needs, and that its "bad" to not be able to do that, when in reality this is in reverse without the good/bad polarity - so it is always best for all to listen to and give my body what it needs, whereas it is always harmful self-abuse to ignore these needs.



I forgive myself that I not accepted and allowed myself to live the realisation that the physical gives energy to the ego, not the other way around - thus when the body suggests stopping something, that suggestion must always come before what the ego wants.





I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to refuse to see that whatever the ego thinks is best, in reality it never will be best for all, because it is based in my pre-programmed self-interest, my addiction to energy and entertainment - while the physical is only interested in what is actually needed to sustain the body.



I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not be honest with myself about what my body needs in all moments, through existing as this detrimental idea projected onto reality that I can ignore this or fight through these needs in separation of myself - I see that when I am honest with myself in these moments I breathe when thoughts come up, I stay clear about what is happening and I take common sense action to give my body what it needs to replenish itself before i cause damage to myself, not after the fact when the damage has already been done.



I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to refuse to see that this process of ignoring pain, ignoring the needs of the physical is the exact process in all humans pre-programmed minds as society that has designed the world as the fucked up place it is now - where rape, war and starvation are allowed to exist in silence, while we humans "power on" through this pain in search of manifesting our self-interested desires instead of fixing this worlds pain.



I forgive myself that I have not realised that accepting and allowing myself to push through and ignore physical warnings, is indicative of believing that abusing myself to get things I want is acceptable, when it is not and never will be.



I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to believe that abusing myself to get an energy high is always worth it, when in reality this is the recipe to harm the physical so I take self-responsibility now to make sure this stops.



I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to hold onto memories growing up of seeing and reacting to my mum not complaining about her pain in her body, to power through and look after me no matter what, as a reactionary catalyst for me to develop a pattern of defining myself as someone who must also naturally ignore when my body is struggling to remain stable.



I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to allow the idea that I should ignore my bodies warnings to me, to become a part of my nature all the way back since childhood.



I forgive myself that I have not accepted and allowed myself to realise that yes while my mother was the first person I saw ignoring pain, she was not doing that out of self-interest, it was for my benefit to make sure I had what I needed, she had few others to rely on and had to act - but when I ignore my bodies cries out just to satisfy my futile self-interest there can be no justification for that.



I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to add layers to this initial starting point of this pattern though developing that fight gym mentality of "ignore the pain and push" from sporadically training different martial arts in my life with a lot of tough fighters.



I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to be slow in realisation of the fact that creating a world that's best for all means creating a world where everybody honours the requirements of the physical ahead of the ego in all-ways, without excuses and justifications for the ego to get what it wants starting to creep in - I am the directive principle here, meaning I am the one responsible to be the example of creating myself as the world I want to see, where all life is supported equally.



I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to participate in the world systems capilticsitic idea of ignoring the physicals needs, instead of walking in discipline as the example to expose the damaged world this idea creates.



I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to fail to see in every breath that the money system is designed the same as our minds, so in any moment where I focus on satisfying my selfish desires first ahead of my physical needs, is another moment I feed into mine and all life's enslavement as this selfish money system as myself and is one step further away from a money system that satisfies life first and foremost for eternity.



I commit myself to not allowing myself to participate with thoughts to ignore my bodies warnings, so as and when I see my mind having thoughts like this come up, I stop and breathe, I realise and see clearly in common sense the harmful consequence of ignoring my bodies warnings, I breathe and continue to do so until there is no more thoughts that come up to ignore my body, no matter how many times I have to fall in order to get this discipline developed into who I am, I work this muscle until it is a part of my every fibre.



I commit myself to living the realisation that me like every single being in this world has physical limitations that must be respected, the consequences of fucking with them are real, whether one initially acknowledges them or not, they exist and they exist for a reason to show us when our desperate pursuit of happiness is causing damaging outcomes to ourself and our world, we are flesh and blood beings with limited lifespans that cannot handle the consequences of ignoring our physical needs as paramount in all moments.



I commit myself to exposing myself and all others who try to justify abusing themselves through ignoring something their body needs in any moment.



I commit myself to living as a world where the needs of the many as all the cells in my body, as all those enslaved in poverty, outweighs the needs of the few as my ego, as the financial elite in extreme wealth.



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Re: Marleys Journey To Life

Postby Marley Dawkins » 25 Aug 2019, 22:12

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It's been hot the past few days, very hot especially for England. Living in a town like Bournemouth is always cool when it's warm sunny weather, because there is such a variety of beaches, forests and venues that accentuate the enjoyment we all like in the sun.



Hanging out with our friends, walking our dogs, playing sports, having fun with water, having barbecues, festivals, parties or just absorbing the warm rays of the sun. These are experiences we all enjoy when its warm weather, the sun has a healing effect on the body, which is due to the increase of Vitamin D which literally is what speeds up wound healing and general immunity.



Just a brief 15 minutes of Sunbathing can be enough to give the body a boost mentally and physically - those with certain disabilities for example will often speak of the noticeable healing experience of sunbathing on the body, my mother has spoken of this many times in my life.



This past weekend I reacted to the sun and had fun with my dog and later my friends throughout most of the day, this was despite having work I needed to do. This is a pattern I have done many times before, disregarding what I need to do, in favour of what I want to do being having fun in the sun when the weather is hot.





For those of us living in dignity the bursting of warm sun rays causes us to want to not want to work, to holiday, party, have fun because we all feel physically good in the sun - in heaven we all can get drunk on the heavenly light of our self-interest though.



Because what is missed within all this as I realised this past weekend and have done before, is the darker side of the heat - the fires, the dehydration, the heat strokes, the irrationality and aggressiveness that can come into people who have spent too much time in the sun.



Then what is missed is the polarity of the light and the dark in this world - there is the rich and the poor in this world, the light and the dark, those in the sun and those in the shade - while we rich have our fun in the sun, that does not change the reality of the consequences of this capitalist money system we all allow to exist, which is those in the darkness as poverty.



In the space of one day, I'm relaxing in one of the most beautiful forests in England with my dog, then relaxing on one of the most beautiful beaches in all of England, Sandbanks having fun with my friends after - to later that same day, seeing a homeless man on the street, who was sweating so much and struggling to even maintain consciousness in the scorching heat as he carried all his belongings, while wearing a thick battered looking jacket.





The light and the dark I said to myself as I went home, why is this world only designed for some of us to have fun in the sun? Why is so many suffering regardless of if it is sunny or not? Why do we think we can separate our fun in the sun to not include everyone? In the sun or rain those that suffer still suffer currently.



I am not saying one must stop having fun in the sun if you have the capacity, the money and time to do so, quite the contrary - but what I am saying is that while this is happening we cannot forget, we must always consider those who can't have fun in the sun, we must remember that a world where everyone is in the sun, will only make all of our enjoyment and potential increase exponentially in unison.



We must be responsible for exposing the darkness of this world and our living as the solution as what's best for all life, building a world of worth - so I will not allow myself to leave behind a world that allows for this small bubble of fun in the sun atrocity to occur, I will not allow myself to get drunk off the sunlight - I re-create this world as myself to what it always should have been, which is a world where we all flourish and have fun in the sun -



I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to react to the warm weather as self-interested thoughts to completely disregard my schedule for the day, just so I can see my friends and family in the sun and have fun. I realise that while it is cool to have fun with friends and family in the sun, I cannot allow myself to disregard my tasks, my responsibilities to life - because no matter the rain or teh shine, this world is in chaos right now, which is because we are this chaos inside our minds, but always trying to ignore reality in our heavenly sunlight.



I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to exist as a pattern feeding into a system that allows for reacting to sunlight in self-interest, that allows for only some to have fun in the sun, while so many in this world have no access to the fun I experience in the sun, working and fighting to survive in the scorching heat.



I forgive myself that I have not always accepted and allowed myself to be honest with myself and take responsibility in my life to create a money system that shines on all life equally just like the sun in the sky.



I forgive myself that i have not realised that the sun should be something we all enjoy, it should not be a punishment for anyone as we see with those forced to work hard physical labour in unbearable heat.



I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to be ashamed of having fun in the sun with my friends due to time and money, while so many do not have the ability to have fun in the sun - I realise that being ashamed is no solution for those in poverty, and having fun with friends and family is cool as long as I am honest with myself with a clear starting point, where I make sure I do not disregard my responsibilities to life.



I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to be so easily led by my self-interest to want to see all my friends/family and party in the sun when it is warm weather, It's like a chemical reaction to want to get drunk off the light, where I move without any consideration of anything else that could be construed by my ego as a threat to my "fun times".





I forgive myself that I have not accepted and allowed myself to see, realise and understand that it is this selfish pursuit of the light I have been programmed as since a young age that is the basis of the very money system that keeps some in the light of heaven having our fun and others in darkness in a hellish existence.



I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to refuse to see in my enjoyment of the light, that the ignorance I have to the darkness continues the very cycle of abuse of rich and poor as capitalism.



I forgive myself that I have not realised in every breath of my enjoyment in the sun, that if we had a world where everyone could have a party in the sun, as opposed to now as this separate bubble of personal fun in the sun - then our enjoyment would actually be real because unless all are free, then none are free in reality.



I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to be addicted to having fun in the sun, disregarding work just because of reacting as "wanting my fun."



I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to be addicted to the healing experience of sunlight.



I forgive myself that I have not allowed myself to realise in every here breath, that the longer you spend in the light, then the more drunk and crazy you go, which makes it more and more difficult to sober up then investigate and correct the darkness of this world.



I commit myself to not allowing myself to disregard my tasks, my responsibilities just because it is sunny. So as and when I see my mind reacting to sunny weather, as self-interested thoughts to focus on my fun in the sun, I stop and breathe - I make sure that I am clear, honest with myself, I enjoy the sun and I also get the work done i need to, I have fun while also never forgetting my responsibility to live what is best for all life. I Breathe and continue to do so until there is no more thoughts that come up, so I can be clear in the sun, where I have fun yet also am also not diregaring what is important.





I commit myself to exposing this system of the selfish fun in the sun that we all have been trapped by, I live as the example as a being that is clear of his motivations and actions no matter the weather, also planting seeds with those I interact with in this world.



I commit myself to living the realisation that It is only and ONLY when we have a world where all beings are having fun in the sun, that it will actually be REAL fun and the human species will truly reach its full potential.



I commit myself to creating the light of an equal money system as myself that shines on all life just as the sun in the sky does.



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Re: Marleys Journey To Life

Postby Marley Dawkins » 01 Sep 2019, 22:34

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So it was my birthday yesterday and it is interesting how my mind resists the celebration of my birthday. Every year since I have been around 20 I really have not celebrated my birthday in terms of having a party for my birthday, getting cards/presents, holidays etc.



It's the same with most holidays for me, but the past few years I have been more receptive to actually celebrating on my birthday, like this past weekend with some friends - yet I still see the moments where my mind has this resistance that comes up.



It's like everyone that knows me well, has learnt through the years to not even both offering me an actual present wrapped up, because of knowing that I will not accept the present, but instead will give some kind of rant about birthdays not being real.



I can remember the starting point of this resistance to birthdays coming years ago when I was around 20 and was starting to question my decisions in life more and more.



There was a quote I read at the time from Ralph Parlette where he said - "Real Birthdays are not annual affairs. Real Birthdays are the days when we have a new birth". Also Bernard once said to me that happiness on birthdays is dependant on Money not God or an energy of Love. Ever since then I really haven't celebrated my birthday.



The direct truth of these statements then led me to spend a lot of time researching the origins of Birthdays as they exist in the world, which when you do so you will realise it takes you to pagan beliefs stemming all the way back to ancient civilizations like Greece, Persia and Egypt.



It was believed in these civilizations that when a God was born, or when a man ascended to become a king, then that date, that astrological alignment must be celebrated through praise and gifts everytime it comes round. This praise was demanded by the Gods and Kings of the times, and as these gods and kings died through the years, we all just carried on the idea of praising a person every time a synchronicity to their original birth occurs every year.





I started to notice how selfish myself and other people can be on their birthday, the self-interest, the irrational demand for attention and gifts just the same as the ancient gods and kings.



So it became clearer through my research that this birthday celebration was really born of ego, but rather then rediesgn birthdays to what's best for all, I shunned the idea of Birthdays altogether.



More layers would build onto this through the years, such as the self-definition of myself as a type of a lone samurai where the idea is that I am only born once and I die once. Yes we are all born once and die once, but this is something many a "silent warriors" in human history have then twisted into like a spiritual concept with a face of magnanimous nobility, but with an undertone of self-sacrifice, intellectual separation and ego.



Then as I was also learning more about the abuse in the world, the things that go on in silence while we do things like celebrate our birthdays - the rapes, teh wars, the sickness and starvation etc.



I could not see the point in celebrating my birthday while so much abuse was occurring in silence. It has merely been an indication of the ignorance of humanity to make the world a better place to me.



I had shame about the state of the world, coupled with also being ashamed at some of the things I had done as an angry young man growing up, like I felt that my birthday was not worthy of celebration when I have done some of the things I have done while innocent children die in extreme poverty without ever experiencing birthday celebrations.



Then also I was making a valued judgment being confused about why you would be happy about being a year older? Are you happy that you are still alive in such an uncaring world? Or are you happy that you are one day closer to your inevitable death, where it be construed as a suicidal point even. Either way the point of celebrating getting older is something I didn't want.





This point was also coupled with a deeper point going back further of having to grow up very young in terms of adult responsibilities, thus my mind has for a longtime wanted to stay young, to hold onto the youth that i feel i missed out on a lot of growing up.



As i said I have applied much self-forgiveness on these points in recent years, yet the moments of separation still come up.



This past weekend for my birthday for instance, while i did push myself to have fun with some friends which was cool, I still resisted certain moments where rather then letting my friends buy all my food and drinks as was offered, I would produce my card for payment quicker then them.



When my mother and her friend sang me happy birthday when I visited, my immediate response was one of looking down in a coy embarrassment and making a sarcastic grumble noise.



I have since realised that while the system of the celebration of birthdays as it exists is not always cool when one is lost in self-interest. In reality though I can redesign birthdays where I can make it something that is best for all life, where I am not separating myself from birthdays, but instead reforming them, redirecting it to be something based in the celebration of life.



And so I walk -



I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not allow myself to celebrate my birthday unconditionally, but to instead resist, avoid and deny the reality of my birthdays existence and its need for restructuring. I realise that I am not an exception to the rule of having a birthday and birthdays are not some kind of evil thing.



I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to create a polarity friction where I have defined celebration of birthdays as being something negative and not celebrating birthdays as something positive, when really this is just a valued judgement that keeps me in separation.



I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to believe that I am a better person for not celebrating my birthday, when in reality no person has any more value then anyone else regardless of if they celebrate their birthday or not.



I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to react to and hold onto statements from Ralph Parlette and Bernard Poolman where they implied that the celebration of birthdays made no sense and then use this as the foundation of justification for separating myself from birthdays.





I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed the common sense of statements from Mr Parlette and Bernard as justifications to not celebrate my birthday.



I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to refuse to see that in this world the ability to have happiness on our birthday in this capitalist system, is based on having money, on how many sweets and presents we get, while claiming to celebrate just because i'm happy to be alive, yet never giving up that money to live purely off this gratefulness to be alive that I claim.



I forgive myself that I have not accepted and allowed myself to realise that those without money are most certainly not grateful and happy to be alive existing in suffering.



I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to refuse to see that through not celebrating my birthday, it has only compromised my relationship building with others in certain situations, which does not assist anybody.



I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to define birthdays as negative in my mind due to the currently accepted foundation of birthdays being connected to paganism and psychotic "gods and kings" of the ancient world with huge egos, without realising that just because birthdays came from these beings, that does not mean I have to celebrate my birthday the way those beings did.





I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to justify not celebrating my birthday because of wanting to separate myself from psychopathic gods of the old world.



I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to define the word Paganism as automatically being bad, when in reality this is separation there is nothing evil or bad about Paganism, it purely means a form of religion which is not mainstream.



I forgive myself that because the system of birthdays is indeed based in self-interest, that I have accepted and allowed myself to not want to be seen as selfish by others, to be a part of that self-interest manifesting as resisting gifts and praise etc. When in reality this not wanting to be seen as selfish by not celebrating my birthday is really a cover to boost my ego of presenting being a "good person" that is above selfishness, when in reality I can be just as selfish as anyone else.



I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to create a self-definition of being a lone samurai gangster who lives by the sword of my "deep honourable code" of being born once and dying once, viewing myself as the wandering ronin simply existing in between the two posts of life and death, where death is the only thing i expect each year, not my birthday which I have viewed as a one time event. I see how within this starting point of thinking I am purely existing as a selfish ego between the two posts, rather than living as what's best for all life.



I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to believe that I am being noble within this samurai code I carry, yet i realise there is no nobility in self-sacrifice and ego.



I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to feel guilty about having money to celebrate my birthday while so many in the world do not. I see how while it is unacceptable that not all beings have money to celebrate their birthday, that does not mean I have to martyr myself through not ever celebrating my birthday.



I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to be ashamed about some of the things i did as an angry young man and since that time to believe I do not deserve to celebrate my birthday, as a form of self-sabotage which is unacceptable, because everyone's birthday is worthy of celebration.



I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to punish myself for my deeds by forcing myself to not celebrate my birthday for so many years.



I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to experience confusion over why you would celebrate being a year older, as if being a year closer to your death is something to celebrate, or surviving another year in such a uncaring world is something to marvel at. I see how while it could make sense to my character, it is really just cynical valued judgements I make to separate myself from those that celebrate their birthday.



I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to view all holidays birthdays, christmas etc as being selfish holiday of a selfish system of capitalism, which although this is true with their current structuring, the answer is not to separate myself from them, but instead redesign them to be what's best for all life.



I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to hold onto memories of having to grow up early as a child to look after my mother, and that this was the true origin of not celebrating my birthday, because of wanting to stay young, not wanting reminders of getting older, wishing I could get back the years of youth I feel i missed as a child.



I forgive myself for not accepting and allowing myself to see that acknowledging getting older, by celebrating my birthday has in my mind been like acknowledging another year where I have not manifested a world that's best for all, where I see myself as a failure.



I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to resist the acceptance of offerings from friends on my birthday, I realise that if someone unconditionally gives me something, then I can unconditionally accept it, the same way as when I unconditionally give to another, I would like the being to unconditionally accept the gift.



I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to react in negative grunting and physical movements when someone sings happy birthday to me, next time this happens I stick to breathing, forgiving myself and do not allow any pre-programmed reactions to control how I respond in these moments.



I forgive myself that I have not accepted and allowed myself to take self-responsibility to redesign birthdays to become what's best for all life instead of separating myself from birthdays.





I forgive myself that I have not accepted and allowed myself to realise that my Birthday does not have to be about the focus of me, I can instead re-create it as a celebration of life as a reminder that I am here breathing and through unifying with my brothers and sisters in equality and oneness, I take self-responsibility to create a world as myself where all people birthdays are celebrated with equal value,



I commit myself to not allowing myself to resist any celebration on my birthday, I see how I have fucked myself in my own lonely prison of the ego through doing this - so as and when I see my mind having thoughts to avoid my birthday, I stop and breathe, I do not allow myself to engage with these thoughts, instead I breathe and continue to do so until there is no more resistance that comes up.



I commit myself to living the realisation that separating myself rom and acting like something doesn't exist when it does is never the solution to fix something. Rather that resisting birthdays, I re-create birthdays to be an example of what's best for all life.



I commit myself to making sure that on my birthday I include as many people as possible, where the focus of the group, of the party is the celebration of all our lives, the celebration of what we can achieve in this world and the celebration of life in general.



I commit myself to creating a world where everybody's birthday is equally valued and appreciated by all.



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Re: Marleys Journey To Life

Postby Marley Dawkins » 08 Sep 2019, 21:09

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If you've ever sparred before in most kinds of striking gyms, you will undoubtedly have heard the phrase "roll with the punches".



Long story short this means that when your opponent hits you, you have to adjust your body to flow with the shot, to lessen the impact of the blow, to be able to compose yourself, reset and continue. The more this is repeated, then the more it becomes a part of the direct access muscle memory, meaning you will do it automatically with no thought.



This ideology is proven to assist strikers from all martial arts in being able to take a hit better if it happens. Interestingly enough this phrase is also relevant to life in general, where it is crucial that when bad things happen, you learn to roll with it, to not fight the force of the event, but rather stand equal to and move with the force as it comes crashing into your life.



Just last night I had a reminder of that, where my house move was made more difficult due to internet issues and old neighbour frictions flaring up.



I initially reacted a little, but diffused it quickly - where as a young man in my mid-teens a night like last night I would certainly have allowed it to make me accumulate to an explosion of aggression and who knows what chaos i would have created as a consequence.



But thankfully, I am battle tested at this point - so many times since walking my process have I been put in testing situations, where before my process I would not have rolled with anything but would have ran headlong into the full force of any issue that came up to cause as much destruction as possible.



That is what gets you knocked out in a fight and in life in general, whereas now I roll with controversy, difficulty, misunderstandings, misalignments, so that I can remain stable and find a solution that is best for all - this rolling is done through instantaneous self-forgiveness and staying here as breath, so that i lessen the impact of difficulty in life when it occurs, even able to foresee it before it happens where I can then quickly calculate and act according to whats best for all.



These self-forgiveness statements may assist you as they have me in my life when difficulties arise, just like last night -



I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not roll with the punches when a problematic event happens in my life. I realise that if I am rigid, if I am cumbersome and stiff as fear creates, then I am hit hard, personally offended and thus not able to navigate the event with common sense to what's best - this is only achieved when I forgive myself and stick to breathing, that is my self-honesty where I am trustworthy to roll to a solution to the problem that's best for all.



I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to have to learn the hard way in life, that if I react and charge into conflict when a problem occurs in life, I essentially become enslaved by that problem, where no solution that's best is possible only a continuation of the chaos we see on planet earth from humanity which is unacceptable and must be ended.



I forgive myself that I have not accepted and allowed myself to realise that it is the very point of not rolling with punches, not moving to solutions that are best for all, this is the cycle that all of humanity is trapped within right now maintaining the status quo - always thinking that reacting and charging into battle is better then utilising common sense to diffuse teh conflict, which causes a world that makes no sense as we see now.





I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to pride and define myself according to being a "tough guy that can take a punch". I have realised through the years that regardless of whether you can take a punch or not, that is completely irrelevant because sooner or later no matter how good your chin is, you will get finished eventually, thus when one rolls, I prolong my career and my life through developing a muscle memory of how to immediately best navigate and resolve problems.



I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to believe that I must battle problems when they occur in a reaction of fear and anger, instead of realising that what i resist always persists - thus i must accept what is here, roll as breath and direct it to what's best for all life and future generations.



I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to waste so many years of my life trusting the rigidity of fear ahead of the water flow of breath here.



I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to refuse to see in every moment, that a problem is actually a point of support for me to see and give me the chance to correct some issue inside myself that is affecting my life.



I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to still have moments where I do not roll with the punches of life, where instead i for a moment react and look to run straight into one of life's punches, then diffuse myself a few moments later. This self-diffusion after the fact, is always better before - yet I realise that this reactionary process has been hardwired into me for so long, that it will likely take just as long or longer to truly release the cause of this issue.



I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to sometimes think its ok to run into the conflict if someone has tried to create conflict for me in the first place. I realise this is just my ego, getting offended and trying to defend itself, trying to create justifications of why it could be ok to react sometimes, when pre-programmed reactions are always based on energy, on self-interest which never can be acceptable as it only causes a world where rape, war and starvation is the global consequence of the unified individual reactionary cycle.





I commit myself to not allowing rigidity, reactions of fear and anger when a problem happens in life, as it creates only a continuation of the chaos in me and all of humanity, which is an extinction recipe, so as and when I see my mind having thoughts, feelings or emotions to "fight with a problem" I stop and breathe, this is where i roll with the punches, where i see my self-honesty, I do not allow myself to participate within these thoughts, feelings and emotions - I breathe and continue to breathe moving according to common sense on repeat until there is no more reaction, no matter how long it takes.



I commit myself to exposing the stupidity of not rolling with the punches in life and the clear consequences this has on us individually and collectively - this i will do as the example i walk.



I commit myself to creating a world where all humanity rolls in unison with each others problems, so that we all can create solutions immediately that looks after all life on Earth in equality and oneness, where eventually there will be no more problems that occur, because we have rolled with all problems in the world to what's best.



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Re: Marleys Journey To Life

Postby Marley Dawkins » 15 Sep 2019, 22:13

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So someone was spoken of in a group setting recently, this person was spoken of as being a great person because of the fact that they give a lot of money to charity.



I agreed that the person has his heart in the right place thinking of others, yet i also planted the seed of implication that his focuses and the idea of charity generally were misguided.



I said " Cool he think of others, however it is interesting to look at why charities exist in the first place, because in an ideal world nobody would be a slave, nobody would require someone else to be their god as money, everybody would be their own god, which will be done through basic income leading to an equal money system".



My point was understood by all present, although a few would still vehemently hold onto their idea that charities are beneficial and are "good for the soul".



I have been their myself years ago, because it seems so innocent the idea of charity according to our understanding of reality as we have been taught through our environment, parents etc. Yet I have walked a long process to unravel the deception of charities in this capitalist money system, because it is one of the biggest lies we are taught growing up.



Everything is in reverse and while charities are painted as a good thing in society, in reality they feed into the basis of the very problem with capitalism.



If you cut yourself badly, no amount of plasters no matter how nicely made will be sufficient - only stitches, getting to the route of the issue and sewing it up, ending the bleeding.



The route of all issues that charities claim to combat are worsening, not lessening. Terminal illness from things like Cancer have been increasing since it was first ever known about despite the efforts of so many cancer charities.



Rare disorders, Animal abuse, nature abuse, people losing jobs falling into poverty - while you can get a lot of skewed manipulated data online for a lot of these points, in reality they have all been worsening for the most part and with Artificial Intelligence steadily consuming all human jobs, those falling into destitute poverty is only set to increase, without a solution asap.



Where does all the money end? Well one may ask that, there are many charity owners with deep pockets, many connected to royalty and banking who always will have new toys to play with, yet the goals of their charities remain ever elusive in their completion.





I am not willing to focus on the light as charity while only creating the darkness as abuse in this world. I create myself as the solution as an equal money system in action living what is best for all life.



The only charity that truly exists, while not a solution is an unconditional action of support given from my hand to another, no organisations/charities lording over reality are needed for this and I will walk until charity no longer exists, where everybody is living as the royalty of life with only the best for all, as we always should have been.



I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to believe that charities are for the good of people, when in reality this is purely a polarity friction where this focus on the light of heaven as charity saving the day, is creating the negative as accelerated abuse in this world.



I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not realise that charity only exists because the rich exist as a tiny godly group, while the majority are poor, when if everyone was wealthy then no charity would exist.



I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not realise that charity only exists because rape, war, illness and poverty exist. If those abuses to life did not exist, then no charity would exist.



I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to believe that our abusive human nature cannot be changed, which feeds into my idea that charity is the only way to go. When in reality I realise in self-honesty that I can change any abusive pattern that exists in my nature to become whats best, where no charity is needed because all are supported equally.



I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself not to realise that poverty only exists because what the planet provides us for free, is blocked, commercialised kept under the control of a few without free and equal access for all as it should be - this then causes the consequence of charities being created as deceptive gratefulness so that the wealthy can give a few crumbs from their plate of greed while also justifying why they are wealthy.



I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not realise that charity has been abused by corporations to promote their own products as I see within my own company - this is all while the corporation gets tax benefits putting more pressure on communities meeting the budgets of a failed system.



I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself not to realise that religion is a failed system which funds itself directly through charity from the community as we see with the Vatican on the grandest scale, without ever bringing any change or benefit that will end charity and make a truly better world due to greed.



I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not realise that charity activists are in fact agents in the matrix protecting a failed system, justifying their activism on the belief that the world system cannot change, so they believe they do the best they can which cannot possibly create a world that is measurably best for all life.



I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not realise that charity is used by the dishonest ego of humans to feel better about the many daily dishonesties that are allowed individually as each one fuels a failed system.



I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not realise that in a world of equality, charity will not exist because our giving to each other will be based on an equal agreement of what's best for both parties, not one person playing god to a slave.



I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not realise that accepting charity is just like a death sentence to those being abused, because it implies that this failed capitsic system will never change, which i will never accept.



I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not realise that charity is greed, because the rich can only be rich because the poor exist - so by taking more than what is needed, hoarding the gold, using charity as the smokescreen to cover up this evil of riches for the minority, nobody questions the morality of wealth and charity.





I commit myself to ending all charity, because charity is the failed experiment of the mad scientist, the charred remains of a failed system that only causes harm to life.



I commit myself to living the realization that the only charity that exists is unconditionally from my hand to another's as a brief alleviation of a systemic issue, yet it is no solution to the problem and when corporations are involved, then greed is involved which only creates a continuation of the problem.



I commit myself to the establishment of a system that looks after all life equally so that everyone can acknowledge the real wealth on our planet which is Life as Heaven on Earth.



I commit myself to exposing how charities are abused by the rich, the corporations and the activists with no real solutions to permanently end the world's problems.


I commit myself to show that charity is a criminal act which actually condemns the poor to a life of failure and early death because the charitable will never give up their control, while justifying abuse through supporting a failed money system.

I commit myself to question the integrity of activists, who may simply have a misguided understanding of what's best for all life - I will stand to remind these activists that activism should be about the building of a new world system that is best for all life and if one cannot stand for whats best for all, then one is an agent, an extension of the system of greed that has failed all ife in all ways.



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Postby Marley Dawkins » 22 Sep 2019, 21:59

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Fascinating how our experience of ourself can change from place to place, you see for instance how we often may find ourselves more comfortable in one house, country or location then others.



Which really explains why we humans like moving houses, going on holiday etc, it's often to chase some kind of higher level of happiness. we feel that we will get somewhere else.



So I watched Alien 3 the other day and anyone who is familiar with the Alien films will know that Alien 3 is generally known to be the darkest and most claustrophobic of the Alien series so to speak.



This is due to Ripley being trapped in a new home which is a dark world, a small prison planet with no weapons to defend against the Alien.



I watched this film because it was the first film I ever saw that truly scared me as a kid, I remember being about 8 when I first saw it and later that night when I went to bed, I couldn't sleep easily, I felt like the walls were closing in, like I was stuck in one of the dark prison cells in the film waiting for the Alien to come and get me.



I also watched this film, because while I thought I never had fear of small spaces, recently I had a similar claustrophobic experience I had as a kid watching Alien 3 the first time - it came up recently with the new house I have moved to. It is my smallest amount of space I have had for a long time and I have noticed multiple times already where my mind sort of panics for a moment.



Where I might bump into something or trip on something because all my stuff is so tightly packed into a small space, then my mind reacts as an experience of a moment of panic, like the "The walls are closing in".





Yet I forgave myself, I kept breathing and I'm adjusting more and more to less space then before -



I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to react in my mind to having less space then in my previous house, as an experience of the walls closing in, where the emotion of fear comes up that my world is literally collapsing in on itself.



I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to fear having less space, to fear that my world is slowly collapsing in on itself.



I forgive myself that I have not accepted and allowed myself to realise that this "walls closing in" experience is not really occurring, it is purely my pre-programmed mind exaggerating the situation of having less space projecting onto of reality - when in reality the walls are not actually closing in, I have a roof over my head, a life of dignity and I am breathing here exactly the same as my previous houses therefore there is no need for any difference of how I experience myself.



I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to experience myself as a prisoner on the prison planet in Alien 3, feeling like i'm trapped running out of time in an enclosing dark prison needing to escape, waiting for the enclosing walls of consequence in life to snuff me out the same as the Alien.



I forgive myself that I have to hold onto memories of a claustrophobic experience i had as a youngster watching Alien 3 the first time, which I have allowed to come up again recently - I see how when I breathe here as who I am really am as life, that no claustrophobia exists.



I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to deceive myself that I had no fear of being trapped in smaller places, when in reality this has come up recently, showing that my ego spews up this suppressed fear when it doesnt like something, in this case having less space.



I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to define myself as a free character and I can see within this how my pre-programmed mind connects freedom to space, where the ego feels more in power the more space I live in. I see how I party more and generally experience myself as stronger when I have more space which is just a bullshit polarity fucking with me.





I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to create an unnecessary polarity within and as my mind, where I define more space as good and less space as bad. Yet in self-honesty I stand here as this breathe seeing the misconception, the illusion of this idea, the ego always wants more space, more everything in self-interest which the many royal castles around the world show - yet self-honesty and common sense shows, I am here able bodied and fully physically functional regardless of how much space I have.



I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself not to realise that I can be stable anywhere I have dignity which I have in my new house regardless of having less space.



I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to deceive myself to believe that it is more difficult to breathe when im in this smaller place, which in reality is bullshit in my mind because I am able to breathe exactly the same as in any size of house.



I forgive myself for not accepting and allowing myself to realise in every breath that having less space is actually a support for me right now, where my egos desire for space to match the idea of freedom is being exposed as not real.



I forgive myself that I have not accepted and allowed myself to realise in every breath that living what's best for all life is not dependent upon how nice my house is, or how much space I have because as long as I have a house of dignity, then I can live as a house of what's best for all.



I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not realise that when I get distracted within my own closed mind, within my own enclosing self-interested wants - this very point is what has created a world where rape, war and starvation are allowed to go on in silence while we all try avoid walls enclosing in on us, endlessly looking for more space for our ego to run riot, turning a blind eye while life suffers.



I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself not to see that when I give into and participate with my thoughts then the walls really do close in, where every time I allow thoughts to direct me, I am becoming weaker and weaker, becoming more and more entrapped and entrenched within and as the mind - yet when I stand here saying till here no further sticking to my self-honesty as this breathe of life, then the walls do not close in, in fact I then control the dimensions of the walls in my world, where I can design my house I live in and the house of what I allow inside me to be what's best for all life.



I commit myself to not allowing the walls to close in on me any further, so as and when I see my mind panicking, being uncomfortable, having some backchat come up, I stop and breathe, I realise the cycle I am trapped as - I stand, breathing and I continue to do so until there is no more thoughts that come up.



I commit myself to exposing the idea that if you have more space you have more freedom, because in reality no matter what living space you have - until we have a world where all are supported equally as life, then none are truly free.



I commit myself to breaking down any walls within and as me that hold me back from living what is best for all life.



I commit myself to living the realisation that the only walls that are closing in, are the walls of time running out for humanity to make a world that's best for all and I will never give up until I have created a world that I am proud of as what's best for all.




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