Hi Frank - greetings. Sorry for my late reply, I was out traveling to for about a week.
Glad to see you here. I am also born with schizophrenia, and have been using the tools that is provided from desteni to understand myself and also heal for 8 years now.
You have already been given some links to my material and also the eqafe request on schizophrenia.
1. When you experience porn/sex images in your head, even after having ended a addiction to such, be humble with it, find solutions to how you can "be good" to you - without the desired pictures in the head. I have found that my masturbation is so endless much better today - because I am able to do it with me - to me. A real intimate act with only me - without the pictures - only me - honoring my body. And masturbation is a good support for the body. and with schizophrenia you need all the support there is. So be humble with self, find some safe and sound routines to support the body. I recommend working out, swimming and yoga. Cold showers/bath is also a nice experience.
2. You say shape shifting mind. I say that your mind is projecting itself into a new unit. Can you agree ? Your mind duplicated itself into more units, so that you have to be responsible for many different minds. So again to find grounding, stability and sanity in the physical reality, and to do what we can to end the occupation with the metaphysical world - and find self here. Grounding in the body from walks is some of my medicine.
3. Your interpretation of the word Natasha is fine. But can you use it to something purposeful other than to stimulate the mind ? Look at the word GROUNDED - what is GROUNDED to you ? Grounded like a tree, or a rock ? Or the word STABLE or CALM, or AUTHENTIC (.....) Remember to define them into something that can serve you, that makes practical sense & support for your everyday.
4. So what you are asking here is about the trouble, the suffering of schizophrenia. And I would like chat with you before we go further. Are you on facebook Frank ? Here is my url : https://www.facebook.com/tormod.hvidstengjedrem
It would be great to chat with you on how to do this as neat as possible and to make sure we are in the same tune.
Looking forward to chat with you.
See you around